Hi All,
My name is Cameron, I'm 19 and from Perth.
Since about the age of 7, I have had a phobia of death and dying. I would have anxiety attacks every day, and would constantly be thinking about my phobia. My anxiety peaked through my high school years, and I turned to dropping out of a fully academic class load to relive the stress.
Recently my anxiety has grown into other aspects for example: A fear of having an allergic reaction to food. A fear of choking on food and water. I currently study in the medical field, and reading the symptoms of specific illnesses give me a fear of getting them, eg. feeling a rapid heart beat and thinking I'm having a heart attack (this gives me a slight phobia of exercising) and to be honest the list goes on and on the more I think about it.
I have had a specific career goal since quite young, and have recently been rejected from my dream career. This has affected me a lot as I have always been telling my self that once I get my career sorted my anxiety will be sorted (I know it doesn't work as well as that sounds, but In my mind it would be a major benefit).
I have lost all passions and motivation and I am still trying to actively search for a hobby or something I will enjoy to do, with no luck. There is just nothing out there that makes me feel happy enough.
I know I should see a GP and Phycologist. I use to see one quite regularly as well as take medication. However it was this that made me unsuccessful with my career choice - They don't want you to be on medication.
Im stuck in not a very nice place. Hopefully with this being my first step I will be on the long road to recovery.
Thanks,
Cameron
