Lost and Unhappy, how do I handle it?

[roguewave]

Hi everyone,being new to this I don't really know where to start. I guess its the feeling of being alone. The past couple of months, I've been struggling with the realisation that I am unhappy, and that this isn't something that is just going to fade. I pushed people away, and now I am having difficulty with confiding in people that I am not okay. That I do not feel okay.

I have recently been through a break-up, and that person was the one person who looked out for me above all else. he helped when I was having troubles with friends (rumours and girls are a vicious combination), when my mum would continue to comment on my weight and eating (which was regularly), and to lose that person hasn't helped me try and improve myself.

I feel lost. I can't hold onto a single thought or seem to do the right thing. I feel like I'm a burden to everyone, as I tried to confide in a close friend and their response was "I think I should give you some space". and all I can manage to do is smile and tell them its okay, and that I'll be okay. I don't feel fine. I do not feel okay.

I am currently seeing a counsellor, but as much as being able to release stuff to her helps, I still feel so alone.the idea of being happy is so foreign its like trying to learn a new language. I don't know how to reach out for help, as friends who think I've just been upset about the break-up have said my sadness will just fade. when I try approach the subject of it possibly being more than the break-up, they said I'm okay and it's only going up from here.

Where is my up?

[blondguy]

Hi Roguewave

Welcome to the forums and good on you for having the strength to post too!

You have been through a difficult period with your relationship and I remember the same agony too.

You are grieving and will have to take more time to do so. It takes a long time to repair ourselves after going through such a bad period.

You are proactive by already having a counselor to help you through this awful time. Excellent work RW!

The emptiness and loss you are feeling means you are a sensitive and caring person. If you weren't feeling this way the alarm bells would be ringing here on my end for sure.

You are and never will be a burden to anyone. You just need some extra help so you can have some peace

There are many super gentle people on the forums that can be here for you 🙂 We are more than happy even if you just want to have a chat 🙂

There is one little tip that has worked for my separation that may work for you too RW.

If you can....please try to increase the frequency of the visits to your counselor. The ability to blow off steam (vent) is priceless right now for your recovery

Even if you have a good GP, book a double appointment and have a really good vent (and a good cry too)

you are not alone here RW. The forums are a safe and secure place where you can offload

my kind thoughts for you

Paul