Hello!
I am new and I don't know what is wrong with me.
Recently, I've been frequently having crying spells for no particular reason, and because there is no reason i can pinpoint that is causing my sadness I am feeling extremely silly.
I start crying when i'm alone in my room, or at night when everyone is asleep, and I've been keeping myself awake because of it. I end up falling asleep in the morning from exhausting myself.
Between the crying spells, I have these periods where i'm just perfectly calm and not particularly unhappy.
Like right now as I am typing this (but i can feel it starting up again)
Last night, when i finally stopped crying and went to bed, I felt content and happy. "I must've finally cried it all out" I thought, and I was extremely relieved but then it started all over again a few hours after I woke up.
Literally just on-off-on-off crying.
When it gets really bad, I start hyperventilating as well, but that has only happened once so far.
I am here because I feel like it has gotten worse.
Usually when I am feeling down, I look towards drawing to distract myself and it usually works. Today however, i've started multiple drawings, ended up scribbling all of them out and putting my head on my desk in tears. Most of the day, as well, I'm just laying my head on the table and doing nothing at all.
I'm scared to ask my friends and family for help because, honestly, I dont even know if this is bad enough for me to require help or if it's something that I should be able to get over on my own. So if i did ask them, I'd feel like i'm just crying for attention or something. I also do not want to burden them with worry.
I plan to just look around for information for the time being, to see if this is just a small hiccup or if it is actually something that may advance somewhere dark- and also find some threads that may have described similar experiences.
Sorry for the long post, ty for reading and nice to meet you.
