Need support/ someone to talk to

lilacsky8

I’m really struggling with depression and I keep on getting thoughts to hurt myself. I’m not sure what to do. I have been self harm free for 2 days! My parents aren’t listening to me and see me as the problem. I’m so done.

Dig

Hi,

Take yourself to a doctor or hospital first, explain the situation to they I sure they will be able to help you. I assume from what you have written your < 18 but get help, from what I have mentioned.

Sophie_M

Hi lilacsky8,

Welcome to the forums and thank you for having the bravery to share what has been going on for you. You're showing incredible strength in trying to eliminate self-harming behaviours, we know that isn't easy to do, especially when you feel alone with these thoughts. We hope you know our community is always here to provide support.

We can hear you've been struggling with depression and thoughts of self-harm, we know you've said you don't feel heard by your parents but do you have any other support you could talk to during this time? We wanted to provide some resources that can be helpful when those thoughts become too much.

If you ever feel you may be unable to avoid acting on thoughts of self-harm or suicide, it's important to reach out. For crisis support, call Lifeline on 13 11 14. If you’d prefer to reach out to us, we’re on 1300 22 4636, or you can use our webchat here: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/

A few more options for talking it through are Kids Helpline on 1800 55 1800, the Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467, and Headspace on 1800 650 890. All these options are also available through webchat, if you'd prefer:
Kids Helpline: https://kidshelpline.com.au/
Suicide Call Back Service: https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/phone-and-online-counselling/
Headspace (9am-1am AEST): https://headspace.org.au/eheadspace/    In an emergency, always call triple zero (000), or go to the nearest hospital's emergency department.

Thanks again for being so open here. We know how hard it can be to talk about feelings like this, we hope you can see it as a step towards feeling better. Please know we are always here to listen.

Kind regards,

Sophie M

lilacsky8

My mother keeps on calling me a problem. My family isn't listening to me when I say I need to move out. I swear if my mother's partner and other family members keeps on saying shit about me I will commit suicide by the end of the year.

My mother's partner hit my sister a few years back and says l'm undermining her. I'm trying to organise my things so I can safely move out of home- this may mean I become homeless though.

My mental health has taken a huge toll by living with her and boyfriend. I lost my job to when I ended up in hospital (I think it was a suicide attempt that got me there as well as pyschosis) things haven't felt the same since. Anti- psychotics shouldn't be given to people with autism like what the fuck man!!! I was there against my will! No justice.

I came out as queer to a few people and my grandma and parents aren't really that supportive.

I told my friends about what is going on and they are happy I'm trying to talk to a professional.

Earlier this year I had enough and I realised my iron levels were low so I got an iron infusion. I also got my b12 levels up (l'm vegetarian). My family dosent understand that I'm doing everything I can to try to

"get better" like seeing a psychologist and I'm currently on anti- depressant medication.

I suspect I have PMDD but I need to see a specialist to see if this is the case. I have a referral but hav booked an appointment. I feel suicidal for half oi month. Gender dysphoria is bad at the moment!

I have an appointment to see a psychologist on Monday and I was thinking maybe a pysch ward would be the best place or a hospital?

Dig

A! good on you, taking the steps in seeking help !

lilacsky8

Thanks!

therising

Hi lilacsky8

I think one of the most challenging things for a sensitive person (someone who has the ability to sense deeply and easily) is the lack of guides on their path in life. Sometimes, what makes the biggest difference are people who'll wonder with us in regard to what we're exactly sensing when it comes to the challenges we're facing.

Seeing the ability to sense as a gift, as opposed to a curse means you can then say

I can sense some of the challenges that come with being on the autism spectrum, even if no one else can
I can sense neurotypical perspectives. Another way of looking at that is 'I can sense a closed mind when I feel one'
I can sense my challenges and the need to have people guide me through them. I am not the problem, these are my problems/challenges I need guidance and support with
I can sense my mother's partner needing to address emotional regulation issues, even if he can't
I can sense my attraction to both males and females (if that's the case), even though others can only sense their attraction toward one or the other

I could go on but you get the gist. While the temptation can involve thinking 'What's wrong with me? Why am I so different to everyone else?', a more liberating thing to contemplate could be 'I'm the odd one out of a whole stack of people who can't sense as easily or as intensely as I can'. Find other sensitives and they'll say the same thing, that they feel like the odd one out or the black sheep of the family. To be surrounded by insensitive people (people who can't sense as easily or deeply) can become depressing if not managed carefully and consciously.

If you can sense what your chemistry's doing, that's a whole other level of sensitive. Impressive. Trusting in the need for blood tests regarding the iron and B12 was a good call. As a 55yo gal, I'm able to get a sense of low B12 levels and the need for a shot through past experience with low levels. Low levels definitely lower overall energy levels, that's for sure. Can become so debilitating. With you being sensitive in a number of ways, I can't help but wonder whether you're a naturally intuitive person 🙂