Need help

[Cmarie1]

So I'm not sure what's going on. My moods seem to be crazy since the start of the year. Im 19 and have recently lost all my friends. Literally have no friends anymore when I used to have quite a few, most I have had falling outs with in the past few months. I get so lonely on weekends doing nothing all day and night when I used to go out 3-4 times a week with friends, like so sad and depressed Into a deep deep mood I can't get out of. I use work and tv shows as a distraction but I just feel like everything is fallen out of place and I'm such a huge failure and all my friends left me because I was at fault and there must be something wrong with me to not be able to keep any friends in my life. I can't stop crying and I'm so lonely all the time and have no one to speak to about it. It is so hard how to explain how terrible I feel all the time. It affects my moods at work, been having bad days at work every day for the past month at least. And am constantly agitated and annoyed at the littlest things. I'm constantly fighting with my mum and dad. I've never been this bad before and I really don't know what to do because it's so hard to try and be happy being alone so much. I am a very independent person I love spending time alone however the past few months ive spent so much time alone, I guess it's really getting to me. This doesn't describe my situation to it's best, it's so hard to describe how I feel but I just needed to get it out.

[CrashCoyote]

Hi Cmarie1,

I suffer from depression and anxiety and some of what you describe is very familiar to me.

Have you spoken to a doctor of a psychologist about how you are feeling and the impact it is having on your life? If so, has there been any diagnosis and suggested treatment?

I'd be keen to hear from you as what you describe sounds fixable. Meanwhile, try to see this as something you are passing through rather than a destination! This site is a great resource for people that are genuinely seeking help and support, so make use of it. There is plenty of literature on here, people that have experienced the same feelings your are now and web chat and phone support number.

Kind regards, John.