Hi Saree,
It sounds like you've had a tough time - I'm sorry to hear that. Being lonely is a terrible feeling, especially when you know that there may be ways you can fix it, but past experiences stop you.
I'd personally recommend finding a hobby to participate in where you can meet like minded people; whether this be the gym, a sporting activity or a local pub. Putting yourself in these situations may seem scary at first but you will be surrounded by people who enjoy the same sort of things you do. If none of the above mentioned things interest you, there may perhaps be a tafe or uni course that you might like to enrol in. I myself made a few good friends while I was studying so you might find the same thing.
It's important to VALUE yourself - you are a great person who obviously wants to meet new people and develop relationships, you just have to realise that you deserve it. We have all had bad experiences in the past that have impacted on our self esteem but you can't let it hold you back or rule your future.
Self doubt is a hard thing to overcome and I myself struggle with it sometimes too. You just need to find a method that works for you; exercise, talking to someone, breathing or meditation exercises etc. whatever you feel comfortable with.
I wish you all the best and think it's great you've opened up on here and hope I've helped.
Saber14
