My life has gone down hill since I was 15 years old. But now 19 years old with no life and nothing.

[Davmcnae]

At the moment it's feel like no one seems to care about me. 

• I feel so lonely. 
• I lost all my friends since I left school. 
• Everyone seems to bully me since I was in year seven. 
• I never had a girlfriend. 
• I haven't got the life I wanted when I was in school, like having a full time job, socialising with friends, partying, going on holidays etc. 
• My family don't seem to care about me, they always go off at me. 
• Everyone seems to think I am retarded and gay so I feel so depressed about it. 
• I got caught up in the wrong crowd in high school. 
• I sleep all day long so I don't have to go out. 

I haven't got the life I want so I feel so depressed about it. I feel like crying every day and no one seems to care. 

All I want is to be happy again. 

[Neil_1]

Hi there Dav

Welcome to Beyond Blue and 'thank you' for providing us with your post - I say "us" as us is the people who are fellow sufferers of various mental illnesses and we are from all over Australia and just post on here - with our own issues, but also to help out others if we can.

Which is why I'm glad that you've come here and that is a positive step that you've taken.

So it seems that a lot of the issues relate to your time at High School - which is never good - I can still remember a bit of my time at high school - various instances of good times and bad - and the bad was bullying - it happened a long time ago and the thing that sucks is that it still happens now.  But Dav, even out of school, bullying happens - it's just the flotsam of life who do it and how better our worlds would be without such trash!

What I'm sensing is that you've got a lot of expectations in your mind for what 'life should be like' after you've left school - and for the moment, those things aren't happening for you.  Well, you're just a pup at the moment - just 19 - and you've got a whole world of events and happenings out there to experience and believe me, you will get to do that.  It can't all happen straight away.

Let's break it down a little - what are your interests?  Any hobbies?   How did you fare at school?   And do you live in an area that is say, well populated - ie:  a place where there are a few job opportunities?

Ok, so you've never had a girlfriend - no dramas in that - these things can take time, and really - are you in a rush to get one or have a relationship at the moment?  May I ask though, do you have a small group of friends - hey, just even one or two? 

Families can be difficult - depending on just who's family it is - I know we'd all like to live like the Huxtable's did in the Cosby Show but that was just a TV show and well, we've got real life.  So without knowing too much more about your family it's a bit difficult to comment on, but I would think that they would care very deeply about you.

Are you involved in any sports at all, and could I ask what music you like to listen too?

I think I've over-asked questions to you here, so I'll stop for the moment.  May I really say well done to you on your post and you've set it out in a brilliant fashion.  Very easy to read and to work your way through.  I do hope you can come back and post again.

Neil

[Shellz__22]

Hey,

Right now, that feeling, lonliness, depressed etc. it sucks. (I know oh so helpful). 

Im a girl im assuming your a guy so it might be a bit different but this is what I have found: I am similar age, tried university but can't figure out what I want to do with my life so after starting two different courses im trying to find a different path (not easy), I changed school alot and barely had friends in school let alone when we left and have had medical issues related to mental health. the bullying thing too in school. 

This is my view now (it sound so cheesy but bear with me). 

1. Things take time, sometimes alot.

2. everyones got to start somewhere and it's usually somewhere near the bottom

3. figure out what you like, then try and find something that relates to it that you can work towards like a job or course something.

4. Talk to someone, its easy to say that the bullying thing was in the past but it is never there until you put it there and the hardest but easiest way is by talking to a supporter (counselor, GP etc) about it. Doesn't have to be a paid proffesional there are also helplines available. 

5. sometimes people need help. even its an ant trying to help you out a hole (Im trying to use an analogy but im not sure it makes sense sorry..) help can make all the difference. 

Good Luck and stay strong. 

[Scott_Depression]

Hey Dav

I love the replies from Neil & Shellz - some great advice.

I'd also like to welcome you here to Beyond Blue (or BB as many call it!) - I hope that you can get some help & advice.

I'm not qualified to make a diagnosis over the net, but to me, from the notes you wrote, it seems you have classic signs of depression.  The good thing about this is we now have some pretty good ways of dealing with it, ,which then means you can deal with the other areas of your life that need attention.  What I mean is, if you're sufferring from depression, your judgement and perception of events is impaired - you take a dimmer view than need be. 

Here's what you need to do - go to the top of this page and there's a menu item called "Get Support", click on this and "Find a Professional".  This will give you a search function to find a GP near you that has nominated as someone who can assist with depression.  Ask them to do a mental health plan for you & you should get 10 or 12 psychologist appointments cover by medicare.

Making this call will not be easy - it's damn hard but you can do it.  Get an appointment and you're on the way to getting better - I've done it so you can too.

I know you said you're not getting along with family, but wondering if you can get a bit of 1:1 time with someone to tell them you think you might need to go to the doctor.  This process is easier if you have at least 1 person to help - consider whether someone might be sensitive to the situation

Will check back & see how you're doing

It WILL get better

Scott

[Scott_Depression]

Hi Dav

Just checking in on you - how are you traveling?

Hope to catch up soon

Scott