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Severe anxiety disorder 24yr old

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Im really hoping to find somebody who can relate to me an who genuinely cares, long story short I was first diagnosed with anxiety at 15yrs it runs through my family but was triggered during me being silly an basically over dosing on party pills whic... View more

Im really hoping to find somebody who can relate to me an who genuinely cares, long story short I was first diagnosed with anxiety at 15yrs it runs through my family but was triggered during me being silly an basically over dosing on party pills which led to a severe panic attack which just came out of no where I got a rush through my body then my heart just started beating so hard an so fast everything just went unrealistic i was crying screaming for my mum because I actually thought I was having a heart attack an dieing from then onwards I would continuously feel my pulse dredding another attack wich I had the next night then from then on anxiety, that faded away over a years time an I was back to la normal person, then 2years ago ago I was lying in bed really frustrated for no real reason an then noticed my arm was numb an heavy then I instantly panicked I got a big rush my brain started burning my vision went all funny I felt like I was about to drop through the ground and die I couldn't even walk I told my partner to call an ambulance because I thought I was having a stroke he had to carry me downstairs then the ambulance came an found a spider bite on my swollen numb arm, so that was just fantastic wasn't it I had a spider bite which numbed my arm an then I spun into having a panic attack an since my anxiety had faded I forgot just how bad it really was so from that moment onwards my anxiety was back in full force I had it morning till I feel asleep then Gradually over the months I would have a couple hours in the morning with out it a little bit more an more of my day without it and now I only get it around dinner time onwards, I only get anxiety and continuously fear I'm dying or about to have a stroke or a heart attack or a tumour in my brain is because I start to get dizzy then my head starts burning then my face an arm start to go numb then I get chest pain an get so dizzy that I have to sit down my symptoms are very real to me an scare the crap out of me and make me think I'm dying if I didn't get these feeling I wouldn't have anxiety an it can be quite difficult for me to relax as I have a 4 year old an a 23month old who are hme with me all day but keep me so happy an occupied I'm not taking medication because I am absolutely terrified that it will make my anxiety worse when I have come such a long way on my own but just can not shake the night time anxiety I've been doing really well on my own but bow I just really need some people to talk to

What is wrong with me?

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As the title indicates, I want to understand what exactly is wrong with me; or whether someting is wrong with me at all. So i would appreciate any suggestions. I can't remeber the last time i felt happy. A few years back I used to cry everyday- twice... View more

As the title indicates, I want to understand what exactly is wrong with me; or whether someting is wrong with me at all. So i would appreciate any suggestions. I can't remeber the last time i felt happy. A few years back I used to cry everyday- twice. One, before going to bed and second, after returning home from school. Everyday I would remind myself of all my insecurities and all the reasons i should be sd about. Moreover i couldn't share these feelings with anyone in the fear that i would annoy them. Soon I lost trust in family and friends and would keep to myself. This started a few a years back and had persisted till date. I stopped studying because of this. The crying stopped after a point of time. But the emptiness stayed inside me. I have considered taking my life a few times but held back because of my mother However, as of late, I have started crying again. I thought that sharing it would perhaps solve the problem, and so i did share it some close people. However I regretted the fact that i ever shared it with them. Not because they didn't care. They listened untill the end but didn't want to understand. They simply told me to let go my silly problems and focus more on my life. Even my best friend gets annoyed. Hence I am confused whether this poses as a real problem or the ramblings of a teenager.I would like to understand that the most. Like i said any help would be appreciated. Please excuse any mistakes in grammer and sentence construction. Thank you.

My feelings count too, don't they?

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Hi so I don't really know what I'm doing here, but here goes nothing. Im a sixteen year old girl, and I live alone with my mum who suffers from both depression and anxiety. I personally have never had any kind of mental illness but my mum has had dep... View more

Hi so I don't really know what I'm doing here, but here goes nothing. Im a sixteen year old girl, and I live alone with my mum who suffers from both depression and anxiety. I personally have never had any kind of mental illness but my mum has had depression for as long as I can remember. When I was about nine my parents got divorced, and I think this took a real toll on mum. About two years later my mum decided to move away to a different city, and she took my little brother with her, but being 11 and nearing the end of primary school I chose to stay with my dad. Everything was okay and then about two years ago I started to feel trapped and depressed, like most fourteen year olds except I decided to move in with my mum. At the same time by brother came and lived with my dad so for a year now it's just been me and my mum. For a couple of years while mum was living away she seemed in the clear, and doctors told her everything was fine and there was no more depression. When I moved in, a couple of months later she was told that the depression was back, except this time it brought a friend called anxiety. For the past eight months I've been trying my very best to help mum out, and because I've had experience with her depression in the past, I'm doing ok. Lately I've just been feeling really lonely and ignored, and I know and understand her situation I really do but I just feel like she's the only one who is allowed to have feelings. Because of this I am hopeless at showing emotion and even when I know I should talk about how I feel I can't. I'm too used to having to be the strong one and I guess I'm just tired of feeling like a second thought, and feeling like what I feel is nothing compared to what my mum is going through and that I have no right to feel this way. I feel selfish because I get so upset but I can't help it. I guess I was just wondering if there was anyone out there in a similar situation because (I know this sounds so cliche) I just was someone to understand what I'm going through.

just crashed

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I had been feeling okay the past few days as mums around, all day i had been fine saw headspace, went to the bank, saw my gp it was a productive day but now i'm kind of in the mood of thinking i don't want to be here, i know i'm just tired mentally a... View more

I had been feeling okay the past few days as mums around, all day i had been fine saw headspace, went to the bank, saw my gp it was a productive day but now i'm kind of in the mood of thinking i don't want to be here, i know i'm just tired mentally and stuff, i just want to cry and let it all out to my mum about everything but as i have said before in previous posts i don't want to hurt her, i told my gp too that i was thinking of seeing if i could go to a clinic he said he would give me a referral if i decide too, my counselor told me that because i was so close to getting abused by my teacher and hadn't really thought about it a lot since it happened that will all this stuff about rolf harris it triggered those memories which i didn't realise until i started to blame myself and think so poorly of myself..

Social Anxiety

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I started at high school about a year ago where none of my friends are. I have made a few friends but most of them are in different classes. I'm always left out when we have to get into groups or pairs because the kids I hang out with are already in ... View more

I started at high school about a year ago where none of my friends are. I have made a few friends but most of them are in different classes. I'm always left out when we have to get into groups or pairs because the kids I hang out with are already in the group. I'm extremely introverted and whenever I speak my face goes red and I start to shake. I was like this at primary school as well but I had friends and I was always in a good group. My class started doing drama about a month ago and I hate it. I don't have a group to go with and I'm always stuck with kids shyer than me who are worse at acting and I'm forced to take control which I hate. When I'm performing everybody laughs at me, even the kids I hang out with. On Tuesdays, which is drama day I'm always thinking about ways to go off school so I don't have to do it. I'm an A grade student and so far my mark in drama is a d+. I get really anxious when I think about drama and I start shaking and wanting to cry. I have panic attacks when I'm by myself. Please help!

No where to turn

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Hi everyone, I have literally just registered here. I have no where else to go. For the last 3 years I've been headed in a downward spiral. I have had many visits with different therapists and talking with them helps like a bandaid but I never get an... View more

Hi everyone, I have literally just registered here. I have no where else to go. For the last 3 years I've been headed in a downward spiral. I have had many visits with different therapists and talking with them helps like a bandaid but I never get any deeper into my issues with them, it's like everytime I go we spend half the session reviewing the previous session and I feel like I don't get anywhere. I have made another appointment with someone else and that isn't for two months. So I'm just plotting along trying to survive in my mind.I am not one to air out my dirty laundry to people so I probably won't open up completely, but obviously I've come here seeking help because I am mentally damaged. I have had depression or anxiety or both I'm not sure...for a while now. It's been and up and down battle for a while and a couple of months ago I ended my 6 year relationship with my partner. He has moved and I am here with my dog. I don't know if I regret my actions because I'm lonely now or because I actually miss him for the fact he is the only one in my life that ever tried to understand what I'm going through and actually cared about it. Ever since he's been gone, I've felt like things are getting worse. I go to this dark place where all I think about is ending my life. It happens nearly every day. I've had a few great days but I'm feeling like I'm starting to think about suicide again. I have no strategies that have ever worked and have no where to turn and no friends to talk to.beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.

going away while still feeling down

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I'm going away next monday, i just got told today and i'm kinda scared that i will go into a downwards spiral as i will be 4 hours from home by car and my dogs, mum wants me to get away for a bit just to help a little but with that i will be missing ... View more

I'm going away next monday, i just got told today and i'm kinda scared that i will go into a downwards spiral as i will be 4 hours from home by car and my dogs, mum wants me to get away for a bit just to help a little but with that i will be missing my tuesday appointment with headspace which makes me a bit anxious but i guess i have to get over it, anyone got any ideas on how to get through the week of being away?

Friend harming herself

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HELP ME PLEASE!!!! my best friends is depressed and has been harming herself. she made me promise not to tell anyone and i don't want to break a promise but i'm really worried.beyondblue’s clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible t... View more

HELP ME PLEASE!!!! my best friends is depressed and has been harming herself. she made me promise not to tell anyone and i don't want to break a promise but i'm really worried.beyondblue’s clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.

Everything fell apart at once. Depression and self harm.

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Alright, where do i even begin? This is my first post, but long story short I am going through a seriously depressing stage at the moment. Like everyone I have made my mistakes, some of which seemed like a good idea at the time but have only now come... View more

Alright, where do i even begin? This is my first post, but long story short I am going through a seriously depressing stage at the moment. Like everyone I have made my mistakes, some of which seemed like a good idea at the time but have only now come back to haunt me. After a failed and self-destructive relationship in march I went into a dating/ sleeping around phase. I did some things I'm not proud of and I know I hurt a lot of people. In mid May I met a girl from uni, and after only a week she thought I was her boyfriend. I made the severe mistake of not correcting her on this for 1) i didnt want to hurt her like I had with others. and 2) I just wanted someone, ANYONE to be intimate with. Somewhat simultaneously I met a second girl at uni, far better looking than the first, and a fair bit more touchy feely even when we had only just met. Skip ahead a few weeks, and I am really close with girl 2, we kissed at uni before we left to go home. However, as soon as I got home I called girl 1 and she came over, we confirmed that it wasn't a relationship and just fun. I was the first guy she had ever been with. Now, a week later girl 2 wont speak to me for reasons still unknown and I turned girl 1 away because she suddenly wanted a relationship at the exact same time I was EXTREMELY annoyed and depressed and just wanted some time alone to recover.On friday the 20th I intentionally self harmed. The very next day, I was told that my dad would be sentenced in a weeks time and serve a jail term of 1-2 years. He is/was the sole provider for our family and now its my job to step up and take control. Despite the traumatic news, I still felt in control, as if my one off bout of self harm was the end of my depression. After a difficult nights sleep, I woke up today feeling as if i was on the verge of tears and have felt this way for the last 12 hours. My mind has been a mess, I cant focus and my thoughts are running through the thousands of mistakes i've made, failed relationships and losing friends from just the past few weeks. I wish I had someone other than family, who is already suffering enough to just talk to. Not for support or solutions, but just some company. beyondblue’s clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636. Normal 0 false false false EN-AU X-NONE X-NONE /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-priority:99; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt; mso-para-margin-top:0cm; mso-para-margin-right:0cm; mso-para-margin-bottom:10.0pt; mso-para-margin-left:0cm; line-height:115%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font:minor-bidi; mso-fareast-language:EN-US;}

New beyondblue app for young people to reach out to friends who are struggling

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A new mobile app launched today by beyondblue will make it easier for young people to have important conversations with friends who they are concerned may be experiencing depression or anxiety.The free Check-in App, which can be downloaded from the A... View more

A new mobile app launched today by beyondblue will make it easier for young people to have important conversations with friends who they are concerned may be experiencing depression or anxiety.The free Check-in App, which can be downloaded from the App Store on iTunes or the Google Play store, lets young people choose options to construct a unique, step-by-step plan for approaching a friend they are worried about.The app provides a range of things young people can say to their friend, and where and when they can say it, along with tips from other young people who’ve reached out to a friend.Users are also able to review how their planned conversation went, set reminders to follow up with their friend, and access ideas about what to do next, particularly if things didn’t go well.Read more here.

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