Fear of blood, family thinks I'm attention seeking.

[Saddened]

Thank you for opening my post.

I'm 20, female and living at home. I suffer from depression, severe anxiety and agoraphobia.

Since I can remember, every time anyone spoke of blood, organs, anything to do with the inside of the human body I always felt like throwing up.  My neck would suddenly feel very tight, and all my nerves would feel a sensation that is almost like pain. I would have to start moving my body constantly/tapping my foot/make myself shudder or the weird sensation would get stronger.

My mother and sister think it's funny, and after they'd realised I was struggling, they would talk louder about the subject and go into more detail and then tell me I am attention seeking.  They would especially do it when I was younger and didn't drive, and they would be driving and start talking about it so I couldn't walk away.  

I also have trouble with getting my blood tested and most times I have to be given medication at the hospital to calm me down so they can take my blood.

Please can I have some advice about how to handle this, it really affects me and I hate the way I respond to blood related things. (even writing about this right now I'm having to fidget and get up and walk around and my neck feels tight)

[Neil_1]

Hi Saddened

To save any further trauma from posting about this, let's just call it the "b word".  If that helps.

But can I just say that what your mother and sister did to you was awful.  That's like they've knocked you down or something and then continue to beat you or kick you.  I'm sorry, but to me they're the ones with sick and twisted minds.

So by the sound of it, still living at home, I hope your mother has settled down in her evil torturing ways towards you.

From your other post to this site, I'm sorry, but I can't remember if you are able to get to a GP?  I know on one post someone was saying that they couldn't because they didn't have a medicare card (if that wasn't you, I apologise).  But you can I believe, get a medicare card now when you're 18.  Others may correct me if I'm wrong with that.

What I'm getting at Saddened, is that I believe you really need to seek out professional help with this.  And starting here was very good, but the next positive step to take is to seek out a suitable GP ... and if you're not sure about the family one, then why not do a search on here for one in your local area?

I do know of friends who have fears/phobias about the b word, but with what you've described I think that's kind of going to the next level.  To be honest, I don't think it's a bad thing at all and I think with appropriately sought out professional help, you'll receive coping mechanisms to help you through this.

I hope that I've been able to help out a little with this and would love to hear back from you if you feel ok to do so.

Kind regards

Neil

[Neil_1]

ps:  with the way your family appear to treat you, I would not listen to them with what they say to you for one minute.  I really don't understand that ... they know you've got this absolute fear/phobia;   so why do they try to make it worse for you or to label you as an attention seeker?   I truly don't understand.

Keep on here Saddened ... we care, we support and offer whatever guidance we possibly can.