Hello cqqrey, please feel you are not alone.
If I can say that when any type of depression confronts a person, then many friends decide that they can't help you or what they do say when you first tell them about how you are feeling then believe they don't want to be involved any more and disappear.
This has happened with many of us and have lost what we thought were our 'friends' who never are in contact with us any more.
When you become depressed you might think you are all alone, and yes that's exactly how it feels, but instead you are sorting out any true friends to those who only pretended to be our friends, so in one way that is good, although that's not how it feels in the beginning.
These people faking to be your friend will talk about themselves, but when you want to talk they aren't interested, so try not to associate yourself with these people, they will only break your heart.
When you are feeling this way, you feel alone, but if I can say and from experience, don't rush yourself, first of all you need to get all these feelings spoken to a counsellor before you are ready to accept any friends and your doctor can put you on a mental health plan, which means Medicare pay for 20 sessions to speak with a psychologist per year.
Over this time your mood will fluctuate and that's why you have to wait until it settles down, because during this process you might meet people who aren't people you really want, although there may be some who are, that's for you to decide on.
Please trust me eventually you will have enough friends later on and also know that you will change yourself all for the better.
Any questions please ask me.
Geoff.
Life Member.
