Hi,
Looking for advise on what to do. I'm 22 years old studying nursing in my second year, and I have lost all motivation to continue. I have been on 3 placements in hospitals working mostly with elderly people, the first 2 placements were manageable, but my last 1 is making me wonder if nursing is really for me. I struggled so much that I ended up withdrawing from the placement after a week saying that I was unwell.
I work in service at a supermarket and have for the past 2 years. Prior to that I did waitressing, office work, fast food (Boost Juice, KFC) and cleaning for supermarkets. Out of these jobs I was fired from 3 - reasons being "you were ok, but not good enough/what we were looking for/hardworking enough" etc. This took a toll on my confidence, I have also felt the need to lie about getting fired to friends and family because I don't want them to know. So I feel like a liar as well.
This job I have now is the longest I have been able to hold - however I am starting to dread it and I want to quit, but I don't have a good reason and no other work lined up. I feel like co-workers don't really like me, I feel constantly fake.
I seem to have problems where I can't make things last longer than 2 years without getting bored. Its terrible and it goes into relationships, hobbies and interests.
I have a few friends and a boyfriend for 2 years. But I feel as though I'm barely holding it together now. I literally don't want to do anything... I have recently started taking medication.
My mother passed away very unexpectedly just over 2 years ago and it has been hard without her because she was such a good person - driven, ethical, caring. I'm worried that I take after my father. He is diagnosed bipolar disorder. All he does is go to work, come home, and do it again. He doesn't clean his place - its filthy, only brushes teeth once a day, wears the same clothes. I ask for advice and he just says it will work out.
This is such a long whinging post sorry, i just wanted to get it off my chest.
Thanks for reading.
