just my emotions

[bella_]

hi, im a young teenager, I'm unhappy at the school I currently attend and trying to do everything I can to move but that's not really the topic here, I feel really sad and I always have im extremely anxious all the time especially with school since school isn't my favourite thing and the one I attend atm isn't helping, I have diagnosed anxiety since I was a little kid but I don't know what to do about me feeling so sad all the time, sadness, lack of motivation, constantly tired and lost interest in most things all I wanna do is just stay at home and lay in bed. I haven't gone out with my friends for so long and I barely have any. I have one which is my best friend and I love her with everything I have, but she's moved schools so im scared for next year. I find joy in very few things, talking to my best friend, music and collecting albums, and that's all I can really think of. im not the type of person to open up so making this account and talking about my problems on here was a big step for me. im so worried about what could be wrong with me. I don't want to say or have this come across in a hurtful way but I just want to be normal, im so insecure I just play it off and try and hide it from everyone, I can't focus on things and I have the worst memory im so fidgety and lose track so often. I want to get help and support but I don't know whaat to do like I said before I rarely open up so I don't really talk to my friends about it and I won't talk to my parents about it its just out of my comfort zone and I feel like no one understands. I've been told that people have worse problems then me which is why I think I have such a hard time opening up and I compare myself to other people who struggle (I don't want to but I can't control it) so when I see someone going through a lot I put all my empathy towards them and not myself and when try and focus on myself I compare it to other people and invalidate my own feelings. I want support and where to go from here but I don't know what to do. also there was a lady who specialises in kids mental health and anxiety that my school conselour told my parents to have me go and see but idk if my mum forgot about the lady or not and im too scared to ask.

[white knight]

Hi, welcome

"People have worse problems than me". Maybe so but that doesn't mean you should ignore yours.

Your GP is the one to visit to follow up on any of the symptoms you've mentioned. He/she can guide you.

Sadness, OK chronic sadness is what I experienced for 54 years before a good psychiatrist diagnosed me with dysthymia. It was the turning point of my life with one medication. There could be any number of reasons for sadness so get it checked out. You won't regret it.

Finally, friends and even some family members aren't the best to discuss mental illness. That's why this forum is so successful

Repost anytime or start new topics. Feel free. Great you took the plunge.

TonyWK

[HappyHelper88]

Hi Bella Thank you for your post and welcome,

Im sorry to hear what your going through and how your feeling, School was also very hard for me.
Do you have support around you? like a family member you can talk to about how your feeling?
I struggled with friends and didn't have many until after high school

Its quality not quantity so that's amazing to have one best friend who is there for you
Im also glad you have reached out today

I also think its great that you have such a good self awareness of your actions and behaviours but I think you could really benefit from talking to someone about this like a psychologist or counsellor as its a safe space and they will definitely understand you, its hard to open up initially but after the first visit it gets easier

whoever told you that is being unfair as your feelings are valid, I'm sorry they said that

I think the school counsellor is a good starting point

All the best and I hope you find the support you are looking for. We are all here to help.
If you would like to talk to someone, the Beyond Blue Support Service is available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 1pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport  One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals.

[Petal22]

Hi Bella,

Wellcome to our forums!

Im so sorry you are feeling this way, I understand.

I understand anxiety can be really difficult to deal with, I’m sorry that you had it when you were little also.

Did your parents try to help you with it when you were younger? I believe if your parents were able to see it in you when you were little they would be understanding of you to still have it now.

Could you possibly think about talking to your parents about the way you are feeling? Maybe let them know that the anxiety is starting to get to be too much and you’d like a bit of help to learn how to manage it.

There are so many strategies you can learn so you can learn to manage your anxiety…….. a psychologist can help you with this.

I also suffered with anxiety I have a lived experience of it but I’ve now recovered thanks to the professionals I received help from.

Please don’t be afraid to speak up, let your parents know that you’d like to see a health professional about your anxiety.

Im here to chat to you

[bella_]

thank you sm to everyone who has replied and giving me advice I really appreciate it, with the anxiety diagnosis its because my school had to tell my parents to take me to the gp ect. its late now so ill see if I can build up some more courage tomorrow to talk to them about it, but again tysm to everyone who replied