If I read what I am about to write I'd honestly feel like saying to the person, "people have got worse problems in the world, this is pathetic" and to also "get over themselves," but here I am. At the moment I am eighteen years old, I am a quiet introverted person who has a passion for netball and I am currently working at Mcdonalds. There I do not get many shifts, so I am now struggling to find a new job, but still living at home. Home life is odd for me as I'm living with my sister of 25 and her family, where I sometimes often felt like I'm wanted only if I do jobs constantly. My sister does try to help me but we are two very different people, it often does not end well. I've found it hard not going to school anymore, I don't know what to do with myself. I've been in a relationship for almost 3 months now, but when I am not with him I feel neutral and unmotivated, is this unhealthy? I love him ALOT. All these things keep swirling in my head, I just want to wipe it all out, the only things that make me happy are sport and my boyfriend. Sometimes I don't even like hanging out with my friends much. I visited a psych. at the end of 2016 and early last year at headspace to help my anxiety and depression, I learnt alot about people and about myself during the sessions. But now I feel empty, I feel as if I am going around in circles, I keep clashing heads with my sister and almost everyone, I find myself frustrated and not able to remember short term things very well etc. etc. I'm trying to think of solutions like going back to headspace, maybe taking a break from my boyfriend after I talk to him or going back to New Zealand where my parent live to regain ground, if that makes sense. If anyone can relate or share advice, it would go a long way. Thanks for reading.
