just crashed

[brokenbeyondrepair]

I had been feeling okay the past few days as mums around, all day i had been fine saw headspace, went to the bank, saw my gp it was a productive day but now i'm kind of in the mood of thinking i don't want to be here, i know i'm just tired mentally and stuff,  i just want to cry and let it all out to my mum about everything but as i have said before in previous posts i don't want to hurt her, i told my gp too that i was thinking of seeing if i could go to a clinic he said he would give me a referral if i decide too, my counselor told me that because i was so close to getting abused by my teacher and hadn't really thought about it a lot since it happened that will all this stuff about rolf harris it triggered those memories which i didn't realise until i started to blame myself and think so poorly of myself..  

[Struggler]

Hi BBR

You said you don't tell your mum because you don't want to hurt her.  You know what?  You are hurting her now watching you suffer and unable to console and help.   Parents are resilient and they can take anything for their children.  Trust me, I know.  I am a parent of adult children.  

Unless you share your pain with your mum, I am afraid, your condition will not improve.  Please tell your mum everything, about time.  Bite the bullet.

Struggler

[brokenbeyondrepair]

I told her well she heard about me looking at a clinic today, as today has been good i managed to hit a few milestones which i posted on the community board 🙂 

[AGrace]

How did your mum respond?

I hope for your sake she will help you in your endeavor to get some more care.

[brokenbeyondrepair]

she seemed fine with it, she didn't really reply to it more she just continued on with talking to the same lady about mental heath