Im lost.

[Daneeka]

Im 23 years old,recently finished my university degree and now working full time in a multinational company. Sounds great right? But recently I've been taking days off quite often and I havent even been in the job for a long time. However I've been diagnosed with anxiety/depression and there are days when its really bad, that I just wouldnt want to go to work, but also Ive been diagnosed with vertigo so it comes and it goes. Im worried about what my colleagues think of me, but I know they see how hard I work especially when Im feeling great and my mood is good. Today and yesterday I didnt go to work because Ive been feeling dizzy and vommiting, and it is apparently really busy at work due to unannounced audit and I feel 10x worse. Right now Im feeling so lost, I dont know if Im using my health conditions as an excuse or I dont want this work. All I know is I want a break from everything, I dont enjoy my life, I dont know where to start to change how it is, to live my life how I want it to be. I guess I let people around me control my life. That is another story to tell. Please help me get a different perspective on this. Please help 😓

[white knight]

Hi Daneeka, welcome

I know the feeling. But you mentioned controlling people around you...that and similar side issues are more influencing than you think.

See mental illness is filled with a world of many issues, not just mental instability. Things that don't effect those without a mental illness can effect us big time. In a sense we need to create a near perfect world around us to provide a recovery platform. Otherwise we don't improve and we don't know why.

So giving the best chance of recovery is a mix of - better environment (eg a move to a calmer place), ridding your life of toxic people, education of your illness, correct diagnosis, best medication balance, hobbies and sports , financial stability etc. Also less dwelling and worrying about what others think eg your workmates.

To make this clearer I suggest you read the first post at least of the following threads and reply there is you desire. Use google

Topic: be radical- beyondblue

Topic: the balance of your life- beyondblue

Topic: worry worry worry- beyondblue

Topic: fortress of survival- beyondblue

Tony WK