im finding things hard

[My-name-is-Jono]

I constantly feel alone/empty even with people around me. I used to hang out with friends but they all slowly left me and now they go to parties and stuff like that and I don't even get mentioned to go, no one even talks to me on social media anymore. over about 6 years ive got into gaming and used to play it with those friends (made it like my little safe place), now i find it to be the only thing I do but when I play games I still feel so empty and isolated inside cause i have no one to play with. Every time i sit down and turn on my computer i just cry. I'm trying to get help through the school and GP but only have recently started. its coming up to the weekend and i don't know if i can keep going like this cause i have a unhealthy relationship with my ex and i wont be able to even go on my computer or go to the gp+school psych till Wednesday. all i want is to connect to people and live a normal life instead of letting my social anxiety take control. ive felt like ive ruined all the connections with people at school and lost all motivation to even try at school.

[white knight]

Hi Jono

Best technique is to think of friends like the ebb and flow of waves. They come they go, they return...they go. When you get into your thirties they have children and "mates" fall away because they havent got the time.

So with this knowledge its better when friends drift, to make new ones or return to old ones. Then a few months down the track the ones that discarded you will return. Friendships are fluid.

Some of the friends you played gaming with might have a nrw intetest like a girl/boyfriend. Some lise interest in games. ..and you might think its you but it might not be.

Feeling left out of a loop of friends in my view is more to do with it being the wrong loop in the first place. That loop of friends just might not be ideal for you.

Spread your friendships and dont take it personally.

Tony WK