Yo, I have no friends, no one understands me or has my back, I don't know who to trust, every day at school I sit by myself and it's driving me crazy. It hurts so much being lonely and this has been happening for nearly 3 years and when I do make "friends" they turn out to be fake and turn their backs on me. I just want people to see the good in me, you know someone who can stick with me regardless of my flaws or whatever instead of seeing me as that crazy guy with anger issues. Not only that but I feel so worthless, I've literally never achieved or finished anything in my life, when it gets hard I give up like a little bitch. I also feel like I'm losing myself, I've lost interest in things I used to love(Basketball, drawing, etc) and yeah, trying to make this as short as possible so yeah I guess I'm done.
Thanks for sharing your story with us and welcome to the community here at Beyond Blue.
Have you reached out to school counsellors or places like Headspace so you can have a chat with people about how you are feeling?
When you did play basketball, how did that make you feel? Can you try to join a team again?
You mentioned you like drawing, what kinds of things did you draw the most?
Do you know why you are so angry> Do you like running at all? I don't run so well, but a brisk walk helps me to get the anger out of my system.
Are there any clubs or groups in your area you might consider joining to meet more people?
You could try the phone help line here at Beyond Blue and the staff answering the phone may be able to put you in touch with people who can help you out in your region.
Hope this has helped in some way. Cheers for now from Dools
I feel your pain! I know exactly what its like to feel lonely and done with the way things are. But do not worry because it isn't permanent!
Have you spoken to anyone else (Parents/School/Doctor) about how you are feeling? If you haven't this forum is a great place to start. It is full of people who are going through similar issues. However, I personally recommend speaking to someone like your parents or maybe a teacher at school (most schools have a counsellor). If you really don't trust any of these people I strongly urge you see a psychologist. Being a year 12 student at an all boys school meant that i was hesitant, to say the least, when the idea was raised. But eventually i went and spoke about similar feelings that you're having and she diagnosed me with depression, which probably doesn't sound like a good thing but it now meant i knew what was happening and eventually learn to manage it.
The longer you leave it, the harder it will get to manage. But 3 years is not considered long! And it is never too late to start.
Naturally, when I was experiencing a similar thing with my friends, it destroyed me. I know how lonely it can feel and at risk of sounding like my parents, you really are not alone. At the very least this forum and its users will always welcome you with open arms so always remember that. Something i did was look to the other years. I don't know what year you are in, but when i was younger the older boys were very supportive and now that i'm a prefect in year 12 I go out of my way to help as many boys as possible.
I will be looking out for your username in future to see how you're getting on. Also, feel free to reply to this with any questions or comments, i'll be around.
Hope this helped! You're a good bloke, don't ever think otherwise,
