Hi, I'm Elizabeth.
Before I get started about my story I'm going to warn you it is something that feels like it is out of a movie and it sucks.
Alright, it all starts back in high school when I met my best friend. Let's call him (James). We were best friends when we were 15 all up until we were 20.
At first, I didn't have feelings for him (or at least I don't think I did). At the end of our last year of high school, he told me he was gay. Which I was and still totally fine with.
However, everything changed when we went to college and we met a few more friends (that were all girls). A year went past and it was great I don't think I could've been happier with my group of friends. That was until our final year in college where James and our other friend (one of the girls, let's call her Sera) started doing a VET course together, Which was fine with. Until they started getting really close with one another. I didn't think anything of it at first and I might just be a tad jealous because I was his best friend.
Then out of the blue James was in a relationship with Sera!! I felt so hurt and I thought that was because I felt he lied to me.
Fast forward a month into their relationship and they decided the next year they would be having a baby. I got angry and told them it was a bad idea due to none of them had an income and they both still lived with their parents. (and they were 18)
So Sera and I had a falling out for a year where we didn't talk to one another. But James and I were still best friends.
After a year Sera and I made up. Because James had a hard time separating his life. I fixed it for him.
Fast forward another year and Sera and James are engaged......that hurt really bad. I hated my 20th birthday because they got engaged a few days before. It was terrible.....that's when it occurred to me...I was in love with James.
Fast forward another year...tensions in our friend group were rising. I knew Sera always saw me as a threat and it was no surprise when my other friend in the group told me about how everyone else gossiped about how I loved James... I don't think he believed it. A fight broke out over inbox, so I decided to address the problem.
By the end of it, I left the group. I didn't tell anyone that they were right. but I was just so done with it. I don't think I could have watched him marry her...I think my heart would've just shattered.
Now it's been nearly nine months and I miss him so much. Does anyone have any tips to make it go away? 😞
