I just want to talk to someone

[JoC18]

hi all

Hope everyone is doing well....

I have a lot of negative feeling recently. I just would like to talk about it and throw everything out when no one judges me.... So let me start

I am upset about what I did in the past. I am a perfectionist. Now I am thinking if I did this and that, or not to do this and that in the past, then I might be a better person now. I might be more attractive, I might have more friends. I might be more successful. There might be less people who dislike me....etc

Secondly, I am a weird person. For example, I am only interested in thing/person I cannot get, and please. When a person tells me he/she dislike me, I will be very careful and try to please them. I will be upset and hopefully they can like me eventually. I understand that I should not waste time on those people but I should spend more time and effort in maintaining a health relationship with close friends , I cannot as I am not interested in the relationship once the relationship is well established. To me, I feel like it is a challenge to get everyone likes me. When they like me, I think mission is completed and let me move on.

Thirdly, I like to compare with others. I wonder why others have what I do not have. They are prettier, they are more attractive, they have more friends. They have a wealth family. Their grade is better. They have a better job. etc.... It upsets me when I start comparing but I cannot stop!

well... I hate myself being a person like this. Thank you everyone for listening to me. I do not have big issue. But it is really much appreciated to talk about all of these horrible thinking without being judged by anyone.

Regards

J

[josh1245]

hi JoC18 firstly welcome to the beyondblue community and I would just like to say that you are extremely brave for speaking out and asking for health. what I can tell you sound like a overthinker a person that overanalyses everything don't worry I'm like this to however what I'm going to go to say you already know that the past is something you can not change. whatever happened in the past has made you into the exceptional, special person that you are today no matter how much we wish or hope that the past will change it never will. secondly you are not a weird person every single person is special and awesome in their own way every person is different and that's what makes the world so interesting and fun. everyone one in this world has their own journey so you shouldn't compare yourself to another persons journey because every person is their own individual person.

[Sokun]

i feel like no one understands me (:

[quirkywords]

Sokun

welcome to the forum and thanks for writing your first post.

I wonder why you feel like no one understands you..?

Is it just recently you feel like this and do you know why are you feeling like this.

sometimes when we feel depressed it seems that non one cares.
There is support for you here and we are listening.

[Sokun]

I feel that way because at the moment I miss my Sons. I'm afraid my mother wont let them come and visit.

[quirkywords]

Sokun I am sorry you miss your sons,

Thanks for the feedback.

Why are you afraid your mum wont let your sons visit.

It must be so difficult for you. can you talk to your mum.

[Sokun]

hi i got to see them couple of days ago but I want to see them everyday. She did eventually let them visit. It is difficult but I feel better