I just want someone to talk to

[20oney]

I've been through a bit over the years. I've never had anyone to stand with me and talk, or just someone to be there.

I Donno All those years of thinking to myself that I don't need anyone or anything. I don't need to talk to people when I'm in a rough space, or when people are giving me a hard time.

I hit college, and it was like nobody cared. None of the teachers did anything when I went from a straight a student, to a failure. Next thing you know, I've dropped out. And I don't think anyone really noticed. I wish I had someone to talk to, through that school phase especially.

I just want someone to ask me, what is on my mind, and just keep asking until I finally give in to them and blurt it all out.

It will never happen.

I will forever hold everything in.

I can't talk about it here. It just feels, nothing

[Doolhof]

Hi 20oney,

Welcome to the Beyond Blue community. It has saddened me to read your post as I can feel the pain and suffering you have endured.

You have taken the first step and have tried to reach out to someone, anyone, here at Beyond Blue. I would like to encourage you to continue with your search for answers and for connection.

We all need someone in our lives, it can be a very lonely place if we don't have someone to communicate with. I will try to be here to keep in touch with you, to help you to find yourself again.

If you don't mind me asking you a few questions, what are you doing with your life now? Is there an opportunity for you to return to college to regain your education?

Holding everything in is not going to do you any good at all. It will just fester away inside of you, causing you more pain and suffering. So please let it all out. One bit at a time, so you can feel whole again.

What is it that is making you suffer so much? What is causing you so much pain? Can you share some it here? Maybe you need to see a Dr and ask for some counselling to help you get to the bottom of all this.

Let me know if I can help by just "listening" to you and by recognising you are hurting. Thinking of you, from Mrs. Dools

[geoff]

dear 20oney, I too would like to you a warm welcome to the site, where it seems as though you have had no one to talk to through these difficult years.

It's an important time in your life so you have so many questions to ask, so please accept Mrs. Dools invitation as well mine to have the trust in us to communicate with us, as well as who else may contribute.

So please remember that it's a totally safe site to have conversation where no criticism is said.

Look forward to hear back from you. Geoff.

[20oney]

Doolhof said:

Hi 20oney,

Welcome to the Beyond Blue community. It has saddened me to read your post as I can feel the pain and suffering you have endured.

You have taken the first step and have tried to reach out to someone, anyone, here at Beyond Blue. I would like to encourage you to continue with your search for answers and for connection.

We all need someone in our lives, it can be a very lonely place if we don't have someone to communicate with. I will try to be here to keep in touch with you, to help you to find yourself again.

If you don't mind me asking you a few questions, what are you doing with your life now? Is there an opportunity for you to return to college to regain your education?

Holding everything in is not going to do you any good at all. It will just fester away inside of you, causing you more pain and suffering. So please let it all out. One bit at a time, so you can feel whole again.

What is it that is making you suffer so much? What is causing you so much pain? Can you share some it here? Maybe you need to see a Dr and ask for some counselling to help you get to the bottom of all this.

Let me know if I can help by just "listening" to you and by recognising you are hurting. Thinking of you, from Mrs. Dools

I'm almost qualified in my trade,I will never go back to school I don't think. So I am the only female at my work.

i don't know why I'm feelings so bad

[Doolhof]

Hi 20oney,

I've been having some trouble connecting with Beyond Blue lately, our computer has been very slow.

You mentioned you are the only female at your work place. Do you feel like you are treated equally at work? Do you enjoy your trade? Do you have support and assistance there from your boss and fellow workers?

You mentioned also that you are almost fully qualified so you must have been there for a while.

Do you have hobbies and interests that keep you busy when you are not at work? How do you spend your spare time?

Can you find activities to do that make you feel good about yourself?

Have you spoken to your Dr recently about how you are feeling? How is your diet? If you don't eat healthily, that can make you feel run down and sluggish as well.

I hope you are able to find some answers to how and why you are feeling as you are.

Cheers for now from Mrs. Dools

[20oney]

I've always been treated pretty well at work. I've been pretty lucky in that sense. However they have their moments, sometimes I feel like leaving but I don't think I would do that. The past 6 months there has been pretty stressful I guess, but I think it might get better, I'm not really sure. And I have been there 3 years as of today.

My hobby, is kind of what I do at work everyday. Which tends to clash a lot, sometimes I just need a break. But I don't always get it.

i used to have other hobbies, but I lost time and interest in them.

i haven't spoken to the doctor. Up until last year, I hadn't even seen one for about 15 years. And I don't find it at all easy to speak out. I would rather keep to myself.

I'm not a health nut, but I strive to eat healthy. 

Thank you for your reply

[Doolhof]

Hi 20oney,

Sometimes in life we need to shake ourselves up a little so we experience different things and see life from a different angle.

I'm trying to find ways to put a bit of a spark back into my life, to find other interests to keep my mind thinking and to keep me active as well.

At times we find ourselves stuck in a rut that we may need to get out of to make our days seem more worthwhile. Do you feel a little like that?

Can you find ways to reconnect with past hobbies and interests? Or maybe find new and different things to do.

Could you try writing about how you are feeling and from what you have written try to work out what you think you could change in your life. It is amazing what comes out when you start to write things down!

I hope you are enjoying your weekend. Cheers for now from Mrs. Dools

[20oney]

I sort of feel like I'm stuck in a rut I guess. But more so, I feel so alone. Like I have all these wonderful people in my life, and I'm probably the best person I've ever been. But I just, I can't talk to anyone around me. It's not that they don't care so much, but they don't understand. They can't hear what I'm trying to say, and they don't realise the way I'm feeling.

i just wish there was someone around me who could see it.

my past hobbies are gone, I wouldn't be able to pick then up again. And everything that I am remotely interested in has something to do with my job.

thanks again

[Doolhof]

Hi 20oney,

Being stuck in a rut can become quite habitual. I know as I have been there many times myself!

You mentioned you have all these wonderful people in your life, why not try and connect with just one of them this week.

They may not ever understand what you are going through, but they obviously like being with you and knowing you. So maybe try to catch up with someone just for the sake of being with them and not for wanting them to understand you.

Maybe you could try reaching out to some of the other people posting their issues here on the BB site.

There are so many lonely and hurting people, maybe you just sending in a post to acknowledge someone else will help that person immensely and will give you the opportunity to communicate with someone else.

So try asking someone if they would like to join you for a coffee, a walk or something. If you find conversation hard ask the person about themselves, where they grew up, went to school, favourite foods, movies, books, anything to get the conversation going.

Give it a go and see what happens. All the best, cheers for now from Mrs. Dools

[Erijen]

Hi

i feel the same way. I hate talking to anyone about my problem because I feel like I'm bothering them. I shut my friends out to the point where I don't go out at all, expect uni. I completely understand what your going through.