I have no one

[Saving_Joyce]

I thought my life couldn’t get worse.

My so called best friend and ex boyfriend (of 1 week) went home together.

I have no one anymore. I’m scared. I was so angry tonight that I punched my boxing bag bare handed till my knuckles bruised.

How can I concentrate on uni with this going on.

I just feel so alone.

[Nikki_D]

I’m really sorry to hear you’ve had to go through that..

it is really crappy and I can understand that it hurts right now but you are definitely not alone and I’m sure you have many other people around you who care.

You’re very lucky you found out early on what he is like before you got more emotionally involved so good riddance to him!

what is it that you’re afraid of? Being alone? The anger that you’re feeling?

Head up high and tell yourself you deserve so much better! Xo

[Saving_Joyce]

I’m afraid of being alone. Mostly I’m afraid of being alone with my own thoughts. I’m terrified of going to sleep knowing that if I have flashbacks (relating to my PTSD, different situation) that no one is there to calm me down and say everything is going to be okay.

[Saving_Joyce]

Also I realise I wrote the top post wrong, I meant we’ve been separated one week. We had been together 18 months and are living together

[chinchilla]

Hi Saving Joyce,

Break ups can be one of the hardest things people can go through, it feels like its never going to get better but it will. You don't believe me now, but you don't know your own strength, but you will learn how strong you are and you will surprise yourself!

You'll need to take a step back and relearn who "saving joyce" really is. She wasn't a person defined by her relationship, she was an individual with hopes and dreams. Now is your chance to chase those hopes and dreams, and along the way you will meet amazing people who will be there to support them, people who will love you, for you.

They can be found in the most unlikely places so just keep on pushing forward and keep on living, but keep your eyes open because you never know when that really special someone wants to become apart of your life.

[Nikki_D]

I understand what you’re going through. When I moved out of home I was afraid of living alone in case I had anxiety attacks and no one would be there to calm me down but there is always help. If you feel you can’t turn to friends or family, you have this great resource right here along with other organisations. You’re never alone. I try to watch comedies before bed to end the night on a positive note and then I YouTube a meditation to listen to or listen to a playlist of some of my favourite calming songs to fall asleep to. Also thinking about things you are grateful for.. even if it’s just a smile from a stranger in the supermarket that day.

Are you seeing anyone about PTSD?

you will truly surprise yourself at the strength you have within and you should feel proud you have spoken out instead of bottling it up. It takes courage to talk about your feelings so good on you!

[Nikki_D]

Either way, you definitely don’t deserve that and being with someone who can treat you that way will definitely not help your thoughts. You deserve more than that. Break ups hurt, no two ways about it but you will get through it xo