it’s my 18th birthday tomorrow and i feel like shit. i hate my birthday. yes i get a present from my parents and i’m sure my friends and boyfriend will get me something but my mum is sort of really encouraging (sort of forcing) me to have a birthday dinner with my ‘close friends’ and it’s totallg stressing me out. everyone is coming but i haven’t hung out with my bestfriend from high school not at a party for a few months now, and my bestfriend is her bestfriend and they have totally stayed completely in touch and hang out all the time. my anxiety makes me feel like my friends don’t like me and i hate it. does anyone know how to overcome this? anyway back to the point, i’m totally stressing about my birthday and this dinner because i feel like everything just has to be good but at events like these i always feel insecure and get sad. but this time all the attention will be on me so i can’t be sad and i’m really stressing out because i don’t have anything to wear and i know i will feel insecure and i don’t want to freak out before or at my party. i don’t really know what i’m asking, i guess just for someone to talk to about this even though there’s not much more to say 🤷🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️
