Depression is a hard thing to deal with. But I got through it! Here's my story:
It was about halfway through my first year of high school. I don't really know what triggered it, but I just started feeling sad. I was confused and didn't know why I was sad. I tried to ignore but it's really hard ignoring a feeling of sadness that you don't even know why you have. It didn't go away like I thought it would. I started talking to a trustworthy friend and she has helped me a lot. She has literally save my life. After talking to her, I decided to start talking to my school counsellor. After a few sessions, I revealed to my school counsellor that I have self harmed. she explained to me that she would have to tell my mum. She suggested to take me to a physiologist and I started seeing her. She explained to me that I have a chemical imbalance. That basically means that the chemicals in my brain that makes me happy, were low. It was hard for me to believe this and stop myself thinking that I was just overreacting and that I deserve to be punished. After 2 months, I started having suicidal thoughts. I just felt like it was never going to go away. So I kept searching for more help but I just wanted to stay with the physiologist I started with. After a little while, I started feeling better. I don't even know why, but I just automatically started feeling better. Now I am happy and I feel so much stronger. I feel like this experience was to make me stronger and to encourage me to help others. Now I am thinking of becoming a physiologist and I am so much happier. I had a few bad days, but thats a normal thing. Everyone has bad days. You do get past it. You can overcome it. You are strong enough. Just keep believing and asking for help. And one day, you will get there.
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