I dont know who i am anymore

[Unicorndogge]

Lately i just feel like i am getting dragged along not doing anything useful. The thing is i am pretty much useless, my anxiety is bad i cant even do what most other people can do my age and now i just have no motivation to learn because i know i will stuff it up or not go anywhere with it. I dont have a job, i dont study anymore and now that i am living with my nan its like i feel trapped even though i was in a worse position at home with my dad smoking weed with most of my inheritance money. I don't know what i am good at, liking something is not enough anymore because i know that i will be alone forever.

[Tay100]

Hi Unicorndogge

That's fair enough- a good, logical solution that will hopefully benefit you both. If you enjoy each other's company, that's great. He lives far away, you say, so what sort of things do you like to when you do catch up?

[Guest_4643]

Hey Unicorndogge, I'm thinking of you. I hope you're ok and that work went well for you.

[Unicorndogge]

Hey mblover

This job that i got is going to take some time to get used to, firstly i am out in the dining area i have to serve customers there food and clean up. The thing that freaks me out though is all the other people my age that work there and the fact that i saw two people i used to go to school with . Thats what made me even more anxious and the second day i went in crying because i was so nervous not because of what i was doing in the job but seeing someone who used to make fun at me at school. So i really didnt want to go back but i did.

Now i am really anxious because my russian friend hasnt been talking to me for just about a week now even though he has seen my messages his not answering and its freaking me out. Did i say something wrong? Maybe the drawing i did for him wasnt good enough?

I am so scared at everything at the moment😭

[Unicorndogge]

Hey tay100

No i have feelings for my russian penpal😓, i know its wrong but i cant help it and now his probably rejected me because i told him that i loved him😭 and he has a girlfriend but still i couldn't lie to myself anymore. I wish we lived closer so we could actually hang out.

[Guest_4643]

Hey Unicorndogge.

I'm proud of you for getting a job, I hope it's going ok for you and you can take some breaks if you need to.

I'm sorry you saw people your age and people you used to go to school with. I'm proud of you for going back.

Hmm, maybe he's not sure what to say, or could be busy or needs space? I don't think he rejected you.

I don't think you said something wrong, and your drawing is amazing, I'm sure he's flattered and appreciates it.

Don't be scared, you're ok xx

[Tay100]

Hi Unicorndogge

Ohh goodness, rejection after pouring your heart out to someone you like can be so painful. What are you doing to take care of yourself at the moment? Maybe you should put the penpal writing on hold for a bit while you heal?

[LonleyAngel]

I know this might be off-topic but I am really struggling to find who I am because sometimes I think I say things even if I don't mean them like I'm trying to be someone I'm not/ ANy suggestions on how to find who I am?

[Unicorndogge]

Hi everyone

Well it looks like i just got rejected😭😭 i tried to be friends with someone from work and they said that we could only be work friends so 😭😭😭 how stuipd am i for trying to be friends with one of managers who wanted me to draw him a picture of a turtle. Honestly how many more people cant i be friends with is they any point to this.

[Guest_4643]

Hey Unicorndogge, nice to hear from you.

I'm sorry to hear that. You're a great person and it's their loss, and the penpal guy's loss. You're not stupid at all, that's perfectly fine you want to be friends with someone. That's very rude of them that you can't be work friends. Is there a person above the manager you could explain that to? That's discrimination and I'm very sorry it happened.

[Unicorndogge]

Hi mblover

I think you misheard me, i am still talking ro my penpal. The guy i was trying to be friends with works with me but he is becoming a manager so he said he cant be friends and that we can only be work friends and keep this professional. Thing is i already started drawing him a turtle that he wanted me to draw, i ask is that very professional? 😭