i dont know what to do with my life anymore.

[jemily]

im currently in high school and i recently got a boyfriend after escaping an emotionally abusive relationship. there was a lot of problems (often that were blamed on me) that caused my feelings of guilt, anxiety, paranoia and just a lot of other things. i developed something thats related to not being able to eat anymore. i feel sick every time i do, i can go days without eating or even noticing that my stomach is trying to eat itself. though, back to my main point, i need to get help with this and

[Croix]

Dear Jemily~

I'd like to welcome you here to the Forum, I'm glad you came as it sounds as if your situation is not good.

In fact I think you are right, you do need assistance as your eating problem is probably more than you can deal wiht all by yourself. Getting in early is a good thing, before you body suffers too much and it becomes a way of life.

You are also probably right that being treated so badly has resulted in this and I'm happy you are out of that toxic relationship now. Can I ask if you are now in a good relationship and have others to understand and support you? Does you family have anyone you can go to who will care and take action straight away to help?

It's very hard to try and go this alone.

I'll make a couple of suggestions that I think might help, the first is a specialist organisation dealing with  eating problems, a friendly lot

https://butterfly.org.au/

and the second is a very capable and comforting organization that can help get over the after effects of a bad relationship and is familiar wiht all the problems younger persons can face (including eating)

The Kids Help Line

You can talk to either of these places on the phone or if you prefer use web-chat.

Please do not hesitate but get support right now.

I would like to know how you get on

Croix