how do i get through year 12 when i feel this way??

[secretperson]

so recently i started year 12, and by recently i mean term 1 has yet to finish. originally i was really looking forward to finishing school and dont get me wrong i still am- but now i wish i had just dropped out like i had considered during year 11.

before i explain i want to note that ive always suspected ive had some kind of mental health issues. i did used to have depression (edit: i cant remember if it was diagnosed or not because i was so young) and i also suffer from tourettes syndrome which happens to get worse if im really stressed so those things could maybe interfere with or sort of explain why im feeling this way but im not 100% sure.

now the context. since i started year 12 ive noticed a huge difference in myself not physically but mentally. mornings have gotten ridiculously difficult for me and not in the normal sense, ive lost almost all motivation, i struggle to do my homework, ive become more forgetful and i feel unhealthily tired during the days. on top of all this im so mentally exhausted and feel at a loss because now that ive started year 12 its like i might as well get it over and done with- yet at the same time every day feels worse and more tiring. my parents often ask me if im okay and if i just had a bad day, but its more than just a bad day for me. ive started seeing a phycologist for reasons other than this but it feels like no matter what i do this feeling never goes away. when im in class i just want to cry the whole time and slump over and sleep. i hate it. i dont like feeling the way i do right now. the entirety of highschool especially from year 9 to now has been mentally exhausting but this term has been on another level. so now my main question is how on earth do i get through my final year when i feel so horrible??

edit: my parents are so great to me as well so im not shy or scared to open up to them, matter of fact i do. but theres only so much they can do to help me.

[indigo22]

Hello secretperson,

Welcome to the forums, I am so glad you found your way here and thank you for reaching out to us.

I am sorry to hear how you have been feeling, I would like to ask a couple of questions if you feel comfortable answering them. I understand you have a couple of mental health issues you are dealing with, which would make it more difficult to stay focused and motivated. What I am wondering though is if your GP has done any blood tests to rule out any underlying physical issues you may have - for example; a vitamin or mineral deficiency like Iron, Zinc or B12 or perhaps a thyroid imbalance or hormonal imbalance. There is a direct link between how you feel physically, emotionally and mentally so it is important to rule out a hidden cause so you are not struggling unnecessarily if there is something causing it that can be treated.

If there is nothing underlying, it may be that year 12 is causing you more stress than you can deal with at present. Could you perhaps talk with your parents and the school to see if a postponement of your studies may be an option? Another thought may be that you finish year 12 part time through correspondence (I am not sure if this is an option but would be worthwhile looking into).

I think you and your parents should work together to make sure you are physically well and look at your options to keep you mentally and emotionally well. School should not be something that is this difficult for you, it is not easy to get through the final years of school, but it sounds like it is taking a heavy toll on you and that needs to be addressed with the school counsellor, your parents, your psychologist and your GP. If you all work as a team, there should be ways to make this less stressful for you.

I hope this helps and I am happy to continue the conversation if you feel comfortable doing so.

Thinking of you with care,

indigo

[secretperson]

hi indigo, thank you so much for your response. i really do appreciate it. 

since i put up this post, i spoke with my mum after i was struggling to make it through class and i was unable to focus because i was so insanely tired. she said the same thing about iron or vitamin deficiency especially because im a vegetarian so the same day we bought some vitamins and ive been feeling still not 100% but definitely better. 

as for my gp and blood tests, she has not gotten me to do any however i am going to let her know whats been happening next time i see her and i suppose we'll go from there.

thank you again! :')

[indigo22]

I am really pleased to hear you have plans to speak to your GP. I am a vegan and have had some deficiencies recently that where making me really exhausted, so being a vegetarian it's important to get yourself checked at least once per year to make sure you are getting enough of what you need from your food. I am also very glad your mum picked up on the possibility of a deficiency as well. Learn to listen to your body, when it begins to behave differently, it is trying to tell you something is not right.

I would be interested to hear how you go if you would like to share after the tests are done.

In the meantime take good care of yourself,

indigo