Hi everyone,
I wanted to start a positive thread by sharing my successes with you!
A couple of months ago my anxiety and depression really got low. I landed in a bad place which involved me having talking to the crisis team at the hospital. That little incident was so embarrassing for me as I felt I had let my family down but more importantly, myself. The best outcome came from this experience though. I realised that I didn't want to ever be in that state of mind again!
Since then, I have been improving every day. I started seeing my psychiatrist more, I was seeing my psychologist, and I was attending an anxiety management group. Finally, we have found a combination of medications that is helping me too.
I never used to remember what was said in my appointments because I was so worked up and cried my way through them. Now, I can listen and take home what I have learnt. Slowly, I have been putting everything into practice and it is certainly paying off!
I am still such a little worrier, but I am confident that with more practice I will better be able to manage it.
I will start with my biggest achievement. It was the last day of my 10 week group and I had not stayed once for lunch. Well on the last day a lovely lady encouraged me to. I was so nervous even though I knew everyone quite well by that stage. I could hardly put rice on my plate and the vegetable because my hands were shaking so much. But I GOT THROUGH IT!!!! I was so proud of myself that I immediately had to call my Mum and tell her and let my psychiatrist know too. 🙂
Another awesome moment was asking if anyone was sitting in a chair at the table next to my family. They said no and that I could take it. I took it back to my table and high fives all around!! They probably thought we were crazy.
I have enrolled myself in a short cake decorating course!
I went to the city with my younger sisters without having to have mum there!
My goals for the future are to start my course again which I withdrew from to focus on my recovery, and get back to my part time job at the vet clinic. But for now I m happy with my other job at a fresh food market and focusing on achieving little things.
I would love it if you read this, to please share your successes! As you can see, mine are everyday sort of things for a lot of people, but hey, I am so proud of myself!
Kelly 🙂
