I have been with my boyfriend for six months, best friends with girl1 for about a year and best friends with girl2 for about 5 months. I always seem to have problems with girls, i just see them as so immature and selfish whereas i am nothing like that.. not to be stuck up but i see myself as very intelligent and get sick of girls very quickly. I have anxiety and panic attack disorder and i am a very quiet person, i don't like to go out that much even just a sleepover does not really interest me. not seeing someone for a few days doesn't register as a big deal to me.
All of a sudden i have been attacked by my apparent best friends for being rude to them and not caring about them. i try fix this but it does not work and this fight becomes very mean, which i am not at all. I do like spending time with my boyfriend and would pick him over them anyway, but i never choose to ditch either of them or spend more time with him or them. It may seem bad that i say i would pick him, but ever since girl2 joined our friendship, i have been left out and made fun of and suddenly I'm always the punchline of all the jokes and they treat me like nothing when we are together and girl1 has changed due to girl2. They do this and then wonder why i haven't seen them as much lately. Last weekend i didn't feel like going to a party and thats when girl2 lost it saying nasty things and basically kicking me out of the friendship while girl1 said nothing. I speak to girl1 and say how i feel about everything and get told it is my fault and my boyfriends fault that I'm going to have no friends (girl1 knows about my disorder).
Having no friends wouldn't bother me at all (i kinda like it) except that i am about to start yr12 and they are in nearly all my classes therefore i need to be friends with them or else i will avoid these classes just like i have done in the past due to others. I have tried fixing the argument but i refuse to apologise as i believe i have nothing to apologise for, i said we have different opinions and we are gonna argue sometimes but then you get over it and I'm willing to do that and forget this as i do care about them and want to be friends (only fixing it to shut them up). But still they ignore me and say nothing.
Just want to see if ANYONE can help and tell me what to do or even just someone to TALK to, as i believe my boyfriend is sick of hearing about girl drama ahaha!
