hello moody blues,
that is really hard when you want to do something, but your boyfriend for whatever reason cannot.
i think it is really wonderful that you are trying to be so supportive and are really understanding of his mental health issues.
At the same time though, it is at the same time necessary to keep your own mental health in mind too. as his partner, you are there to support him but not heal him. you are also supposed to be able to live your own life at the same time. It's a very fine balancing act when you are in love and want to help.
my girlfriend and i have figured out a balance that works for us. we have spoken a lot about my abandonment issues and even that i just don't want to leave my plants and animals at home all the time. so she very often goes on weekends away and even planning some holidays with friends, while i will be left behind. of course i will feel pretty rubbish while she's away, but i plan for that. I find things to do at home to keep myself busy.
perhaps it is worthwhile speaking to your boyfriend about that. it sounds like you really want to explore and just do more things, but feel held back and trapped? what if you could still do that? it may be a little compromise (perhaps a shorter time, perhaps your boyfriend won't be able to join) but it's really important that you don't sacrifice your life as well.
James
