Let's list them off shall we;
I'm highly anxious atm for a number reason such as I'm under two months to being 18 and had a job actually sprung on me without warning by my father ( get your resume, this is where you will have to work). I did my first shift without trouble due to experience home cooking (jobs at subway) I was feeling mostly emotionally disconnected until the end where I picked up my paperwork and was slammed with anxiety of many things such as worrying how much of my life was now going to be sucked up by this unwanted job. Logic states that it alright to be anxious and just to follow through but the ripples on the water per se spoke differently. This feeling ate away at me for a while then subsided but after my second shift it returned as I awaited my roster. The roster took ages so I relaxed however I continuously have been having suicidal thoughts and have been struggling at times to connect with reality. What doesn't help is that there appears to be no further shifts scheduled according to the app but I don't if there is something must do. What also doesn't help is that my sessions with a counsellor are finishing up and I can't get in contact with him rn. I'm just really feeling so empty and lifeless like I'm already dead.
