Hey I know what you're going through. I was also once in your shoes at the age of 15 and in love. It was a long distance, abusive toxic relationship, I lost alot of relationships and dropped out of school. My mum despised us being together. I ended up cutting off contact with him as i was so hurt, i had been cheated on multiple times etc. It took me a long time to realize how dependant i was on this person, and i felt i would have nothing if i left him. I thought this was love, as i didn't know any better. I was very naive, and lost.
It's been 5 years since then I'm now 20 and i still think about him to this day. I never received the closure i deserved, but i learnt the hard way that you can't change the way someone is, only the way you feel about them and you can only save yourself. Know your self worth. It's all a growing curb, I learnt alot of harsh experiences.. and my past has taught me alot of valuable lessons.
I wish you all the best dear
xx
