Feeling a bit worse

Liam007
Community Member

I feel like I've made no progress since my first breakdown in October of last year.

I now find myself being worried and upset when there is almost no reason to be.

I feel like I can't do any relaxation techniques

I just am so unsure at this point

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Zeal
Community Member

Hi Liam,

As I don't know much about your situation, I'm just going to try and give you some general subjective advice. Whether your breakdown was an anxiety attack of sorts, a period of intense anxiety, a depressive episode, or some sort of emotional breakdown - seeking help is crucial. As this has been your first breakdown, you will have a great chance of improvement if you get help now.

Have you mentioned your breakdown to anyone yet: your GP, a family member, or a friend? Also, have you ever been diagnosed with anxiety, or another mental health condition? Relaxation techniques can be deceptively tricky to master. Try starting with simple things. When you're in the shower, try being mindful and aware. So, focus on how the water feels as it trickles over your skin, focus on the feeling of lathering your skin with soap, massage shampoo into your hair, etc. This is sometimes referred to as a mini-meditation. These can be just as helpful.

Having relaxing and/or engaging hobbies is also helpful. Reading has been proven to relieve feelings of stress. You could also try drawing, walking, or throwing a ball around to unwind and relax. Having a tidy home environment can also have a calming effect psychologically. Being the neat person I am, I have read articles about this! It may sound trivial, but it is surprisingly important. When your physical environment (bedroom and other spaces) are tidy and organised, it helps you to find things faster, and looks more inviting and appealing. This can help you to feel more calm in your own home.

Good luck with relaxing.

Best wishes,

SM 

Neil_1
Community Member

Hi there Liam

 

May I ask when was your last appointment with your doctor?   If it was recently what did they suggest for you?    And if you haven’t been for a while, it might be a very good thing to seek out an appointment as soon as you can.

 

I’m guessing that your sleeping is not overly good at the moment either?

 

Do you feel that this is mostly being bought on by your commencement back into Year 12?

 

Sorry, I’ve fired a lot of questions to you, but do hope you can get back to us.

 

Neil

Liam007
Community Member

Hi guys,

Neil,

I'm trying to get in to see my doctor, I think I might need some sort of medication to help out espically with my sleep which has been particulary bad.

Year 12 is definately the major factor, it's been emotionally draining me to the point where I feel like I hate having emotions. I just keep thinking about "Stuff to avoid" eg Formal, excursions. I just want to skip the graduation assembly and all that. I start to feel like my dream to be an actor isn't meant and it's upsetting.

SM, to sum my background super quick. I had some bad experiences in my first few years of high school, which lead to me cutting myself of socially from the school world. I was a creative arts person but wouldn't let the school display any of them. In 2014, I decided to end that but feel like the whole thing backfired. Which then leads me to now, I had a bad experience on a school excursion which lead to me feeling inadquate and a lot of self-hatred

The only people who know what is happening for me is my parents, a headspace counselor and one teacher. Nobody else knows I feel like this. There was a time when I would google pages like "I hate myself" "I feel worthless" etc.

I'm just so lost now, I don't know what else I can do. It's all too overwhelming at the moment to think about

Liam007
Community Member
Actually with the acting, I just feel strange. I have such low self esteem but enjoy performing and want to keep going. I still like it though.

Talk soon

Liam,

 I went through a similar phase to you. It was hard to get out of. My biggest thing was to take a goal post yr12, and work as hard as you can for it, it helps to focus and work for and if you happen to achieve it (like me) the result is satisfying and it makes the feeling of worthlessness and depression ease in knowing you can achieve something, almost like a bite me to the bad feelings.

Hope this makes some sense 🙂