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[Chloe_f]

I need help. I feel so selfish lately being so upset over everything in my life most people with think I’m being over dramatic but to be honest everything in my life is going down hill right now my depression has gotten worse and since I’m a 14 yr old at an Australian high school everything to do with mental health is under-looked and teenagers like to shame people for having mental health problems it’s gotten that bad that I’ve been in hospitals for about 2 months from unsuccessful suicide attempts as soon as people at my school realised this they were quick to judge I slowly lost the little amount of friends I had and all of them have turned against me as I am “emo” I felt like the only person I had left was my boyfriend but as he is dealing with much of the same things it was really hard for us to stay together through it all it was such a rough patch so a week ago we decided to call it quits and to be honest it was the hardest thing I’ve ever done to let my best friend and the love of my life go I know I’m only young but we were really good for each other we had so much in common and I felt so safe around him like I’ve never been able to with anyone else I miss what we had and just the idea of him but I know that I have to move on but I just don’t know how. I’m so tired of all the constant petty drama I have to get sucked into because of my mental health I always feel the need to talk and be around people but lately everyone has slowly gotten tired of my constant talking and my energy that I’ve lost touch of it myself I find it really hard to get out of bed in the mornings and sometimes I don’t even make it home from school I leave and try an end my life eventually I get found but I just need help please if anyone has any advice on what to do other then counselling please let me know 

[Sophie_M]

Hi there,   Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums. It was so brave of you to reach out here. We can understand how difficult it must be to feel this way. Thank you for letting us know about this.    We would like to talk through these feelings with you, so a member of our team will be getting in touch with you privately. If you feel unable to keep yourself from acting on your thoughts about self-harm, this is an emergency, and you need to call 000 (triple zero). If you do not need immediate support, we’d suggest reaching out to Kids Helpline (1800 55 1800). Kids Helpline offers free phone counselling services 24/7 or you could also contact that via email or webchat through their website: https://kidshelpline.com.au/  Our community is full of lovely people, and some have experience of dealing with similar experiences. We’re sure they’d love to hear a bit more about you and may drop by and share their thoughts here once they spot your post.   Kind regards,    Sophie M