Endless anxiety

[nightsky1100]

Ever since 9 months ago I've kept hearing inappropriate words in my head for no reason, it used to happen to me before but never all the day, and that scared me to a point where I was doing an assignment and then I kept feeling stressed and stressed. I told a parent about it but she thought I was physically unwell, which I kept telling them this was not the case and that I felt strongly this was anxiety. I wasn't really able to do much of my work but had finished most of it before, then handed it in but the anxiety kept going everyday and I could feel myself feeling less and less normal I couldn't think of anything else except the anxiety and when I distracted myself it interrupted me, I would feel nausea, vomiting and I would cry most of the time. I ended up failing my work when I am a good student and this anxiety still continues now. I have started an anti depressant a few weeks ago after seeing my psych but I didn't tell her the true story, I just felt I was losing my mind. Now its so hard to be comfortable and concentrate and enjoy my life, so now I have depression and am not happy about how my life is or where I see myself in the future, I just wish I was in the past and actually wished I had seen help much earlier. I really need some help with this.

[MsPurple]

Hi nightsky and welcome to the BB forums.

First of all I want to let you know you are not losing your mind. I want to let you know you are not alone. You said "anxiety kept going everyday and I could feel myself feeling less and less normal I couldn't think of anything else except the anxiety and when I distracted myself it interrupted me, I would feel nausea, vomiting and I would cry most of the time." This is quiet normal signs and symptoms for someone with anxiety. I felt the same way when I was at uni and it took time and treament (yes I was on meds so had to wait for them to kick in) to reduce the symptoms and for it to become easier.

It also sounds like you are having Intrusive thoughts. I quote An intrusive thought is an unwelcome involuntary thought, image, or unpleasant idea that may become an obsession, is upsetting or distressing, and can feel difficult to manage or eliminate. I would have unpleasant thoughts about myself and this was because I was having intrusive thoughts. It took me a while to open up to my therapist about it because I was worried they would think I was crazy and worse then initially expected. But they told me it was completely normal for someone with anxiety.

I just want you to know you are not alone.

[nightsky1100]

Thank you Ms Purple. I think those words that used to be in my head stopped already so that isn't much of a problem, but its just the anxiety that came because of that. I am trying my best to calm myself down but when push comes to shove,

[nightsky1100]

Thank you Ms Purple,

The words that I have kept on hearing have stopped long ago, but the anxiety that came from it is still going on. I am trying to do my best to make myself feel more comfortable about it but sometimes I can manage and sometimes I can't especially when push comes to shove and I have to work. I am just so scared that it will run through the whole day and I will end up crying and I did this in a public area and found that very embarrassing.

I am hoping the medication will kick in soon.

I know it is completely normal and understand it is anxiety, but its frustrating not being able to do the things I used to do and waking up with something like a stomach ache when it isn't one.

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi Nightsky1100

Thanks for your post.

I'm just having a read of what you've been through and I'm glad that you've met with a psychologist and are starting some medications; hopefully they help soon! Can I ask if you've told the psychologist what's going on for you now?

Hopefully you know now that you're not losing your mind - it's very much still in tact!

Can you tell us what happens when you get anxious? What happens and what do you do? Are there any techniques that you've tried to help? Ideally it would be great for us to get to a point where you don't have to be embarrassed like that again, but if it helps in any way I've cried many times in public! There are lots of apps, breathing techniques and muscle relaxation exercises that might be worth trying to really help ground yourself in that moment.

I also think it's worth reminding you that all the things you used to do you will be able to do again. Your stomach ache is very real even though there's nothing serious behind it. Anxiety wrecks havoc on our bodies! We're often made to believe that it's just anxiety so it's not real, but the pain is very real. You will do great things despite your anxiety.