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The_Vegetable · ‎22-07-2018

I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. I just, I’m so sad and upset all the time and I don’t know how to fix it. I don’t have any friends, I don’t go out anymore and I don’t want to. I struggle to get out of bed everyday, I’m just so done. I’ve tried to fix what’s going on in my life but nothing I do seems to help. Mum saids it’s just because I’m fat and lazy that’s why I don’t want to leave the house and maybe that true, I mean I don’t even what to see anyone anymore.

i just want to be happy again and not feel like this anymore.

please help me, I need something to fix me. I try really hard but no matter what I do, it doesn’t fix me. I force myself out and around people but I just feel sick and stupid. I can’t talk to anyone anymore. I don’t know what to do.

smallwolf · ‎22-07-2018

Hi. Welcome to beyond blue. I am reading of the hurt in your post. I am out at the moment but when I get back home I will reply properly. I am listening and sitting with you.

Tim

startingnew · ‎22-07-2018

Hello and welcome

Im so sorry your having such a hard time. your mum doesnt sound very understanding but i also know it can be hard to speak up about how we are really feeling. do you think you could write her a letter about how your eally feeling and leave it somewhere for her to read?

Do you have any interests at all that you join a group and meet new friends?

I think Headspace and Kidshelpline would be most beneficial to you (do you mind if i ask your age?- i ask as i might be able to suggest other things) - they both have sites with information and also the chance for free counsellling either via phone or through webchat. Reachout is also another that i think might be helpful for you as well.

We have friends cafe here in the social zone where you can meet some other young members like myself as well. On BB there is also the K-10 quiz, it might be helpful for you to take that quiz too..

please keep talking here, we are listening.

The_Vegetable · ‎24-07-2018

I’m turning 18 this year. I’ve got an extreme anxiety disorder and aspergers, so I struggle to connect with people. I had a few friend when I was in school but when I dropped out I stopped talking to them.

I’ve to reconnect with them and other people that I use to hang around but I have no motivation anymore, I just don’t see a point to it. I feel embarrassed for myself because I can’t talk to people right so I don’t bother anymore.

I hate the way I look and the way I talk, Ive tried to fix it because maybe If I like myself more I will be more motivated to do things. I tried to get help but I struggle to do a lot of things by myself I asked mum she said that it’s my own fault that I feel like this and need to figure it out on my own. I feel like she’s angry at me. I try and talk to her about how I feel but she doesn’t want to listen, I don’t have anyone else to talk to.

All my old hobbies that use to interest me don’t anymore. I still like watching documentaries though.

smallwolf · ‎24-07-2018

The Vegetable,

Hello again. Can I ask you a question... You said that you think your mum does not want to listen. Can I ask why you think that? Is it because she does not reply to you. In my limited experience I found that if I am talking to someone that does not have depression, it appears that way, but in fact they are in fact listening, but unsure how to respond. It is because "they" do not understand, and are trying to see things from your perspective.

Have you spoken to a GP about your anxiety? They might refer you to a psychologist? startingnew also gave some suggestions in this area. Give you someone to talk to?

I know that things might seem tough at the moment, but remember that you have the support of all the users here, and there is a brighter day ahead. Just have to keep moving forwards. I am certain you can do that?

Tim