Don’t know why I’m feeling like this

[Frankl15]

For the last two nights I hadn’t slept properly because every time I close my eyes scary thoughts pop into my head that then keeps me up. I’m thinking hard on taking my anxiety medication but scared of the side effects that I had read. I’ve been trying to tackle my anxiety with other methods - Drawing is my Passion and the only thing that I do when I’m anxious apart from sleeping. Recently this person that I liked ghosted me and social media , my depression started after that happened and whenever I think about that person these scary thoughts pop up that stop me from thinking about him. Maybe my mind associates that as being traumatic for and causes these thoughts or am I losing it ?? ! I’m pretty social I’ve never had any problems with college lifestyle - and I’m pretty happy so I don’t know why these thoughts effect me.

Help Anyone ?

P.S I’m looking into councilling but the system is pretty weird at University.

[Emmy.]

Hi Frankl15.

I’m sorry to read about the scary thoughts you’re having before bedtime. Do you have a little routine before sleeping? I find that helps me. A warm shower, diffuse some essential oils and play some music. There’s a great app called “sleep pillow” - it’s all different beautiful sounds (waves lapping, wind chimes, birds) and you can set a timer for like 30 mins and then it turns itself off - hopefully in that time you’ve fallen asleep.

This person that you liked that has ghosted you? Have you tried to reach out to them at all to try and find out why they’ve stopped communicating with you?? Social media can be hard sometimes. Perhaps write them a letter about how you’re feeling since they’ve done this. Perhaps you don’t even need to send it if you don’t want - put it might be nice for you to even just get some thoughts down on paper.

You mentioned that your not taking your medication. Have you had them in the past and experienced side effects? If so, you can always talk about it with your GP and they can prescribe you something different. If you’ve not had them before what side effects are you concerned about?

Tell me a little more about your drawing - what sort of things do you like to draw. It must be lovely to have an outlet like that.

With the counselling could your GP refer to you a psychologist (if the university system is a bit complicated). They can put you on a plan and receive 10 sessions subsidised by Medicare. It may help you to talk through these scary thoughts you’re having.

Hope you’re doing something nice today on the weekend 🙂 Here for you. Emmy

[PamelaR]

Hello Frankl15

I see you've had 7 posts already so I'm assuming you've been welcomed already Frankl.

Wow, things are sounding a bit strange (scary) for you at the moment. Anxiety and depression can make life difficult, especially when you're trying to study. I had the same issues and my gp told me - go for a run (get rid of the excess adrenaline). It was not helpful at all.

So years later, I'm just now starting to learn how to manage my anxiety and depression. It's not easy, it's ongoing, however, it's very rewarding when I do.

You say the university counselling is weird. Did you want to explain a little more about what you mean? My experience at uni counselling was all positive. They really helped me get through all my exams and assignments so I could leave with a degree. There is a lot of information out there on anxiety. Do a google search -

anxiety - Beyond Blue

If you're not happy with the service they provide, how about going to your gp and talking with them about referring you on to a therapist? There are therapists that bulk bill and you can get 10 free sessions a calendar year.

Let us know how you get on. If you want, you can also provide more details about what's happening in your life to make you feel this way. Then we could help further.

Kind regards

PamelaR

[Frankl15]

Hi Emmy

Thanks you for the app suggestion will look into it for sure 🙂

I was prescribed medication but the doctor said it’s just a trial and that if I’m not comfortable I shouldn’t force myself to take it - I looked up that people react differently to their medications. I’m pretty sporty and yes Drawing is pretty important to me - I mostly draw marvel characters or other movie characters and sometimes landscape sketches.

I found the number he texted to me but I feel I’m just annoying as I did text a lot but isn’t that normal when you like someone ? And he did consider me a friend by maybe he changed because we live 2 hours apart back in our hometowns and I met him at University - and we kind of made plans to meet up at some point . But since being ghosted I just don’t feel it’s a good idea to keep texting him. But I think I pushed it cause I wanted to be more than friends which I feel horrible and guilty about.

Yes I think the psychologist plan might be a bit better I’m hoping to speak to someone soon.

Thanks again for your help 🙂

[Emmy.]

Hi Frankl15,

Thanks for replying 🙂

You have to feel comfortable about taking the medication, perhaps you could discuss these concerns with your GP.

Oh I love Marvel characters, which is your favourite to draw? My favourite characters would be the hulk, doctor strange and Jessica jones.

Its hard when we having feelings for someone and they’re not reciprocated and especially since he’s not given you any explanation. Perhaps give him some space and time, you may find he reaches out. Don’t feel guilty about being open about your feelings - it’s good that your honest and true to yourself. Try not to over analyse it too much (easier said than done right).

Let us know how you get on with arranging to see a psychologist. Emmy

[Frankl15]

Hi PamelaR

Thank you for replying 🙂

The councelling system was what I didn’t get it called triage I think as But I’ve been there before and they’ve been a great help and I’m hoping to continue going back to those services 🙂

I also agree I think a therapist might be a good solution as well. I think not being able to see or communicate that one person after being ghosted was a bit traumatic as I didn’t know what happened and if it was because of me and I get this guit feeling like I did something wrong and my self-esteem had dropped and I did drink a lot and did some stupid things - but this all happened last year - this year I’m trying to process things and to not use alcohol as a solution for everything. Uni was kind of blank last year for me. That one person meant a lot to me but obviously he didn’t share the same feelings so I’m learning to move on and not think too much into it.

Thanks again for your suggestions PamelaR 🙂

[Frankl15]

Hi Emmy

For sure , my mum gave me my medication when I moved to uni and she suggested that if I wanted to start taking them to talk to a GP and uni medical centre and show them what the GP back home prescribed me.

I actually drew Doctor Strange today haha and Spider-Man so I’m looking to expand my talent on social media but haven’t gotten there yet - so that’s been a hobby keeping me grounded.

Yeah I think space is the best - I tend to be open about my feelings when I like someone as I’d rather tell them straight out - and he gestured feelings back at time so that’s why I was hurt and confused when he disappeared.

Thanks again Emmy - Will update on my progress .