Hi Calder and welcome to the BB forums. There are many different sections of the forums and threads and it will take some exploring to figure it all out. I will make a suggestion that you go to the Social threads and go to a thread titled Rainbow Cafe. This is a cafe for the LBGT+ community (as well as allys and people questioning gender/sexuality). There are people part of different communities there.
Sounds like you are a bit confused about your sexuality and romantic relationship. Sounds like you like males but not in a romantic way. Have I understood this correctly? I Have you talked to anyone about your sexual/romantic confusion? It is normal for anyone to question their sexuality and romantic preferences, unfortunately people are not as open about their feelings of sexually/romantic confusion so many don't realise that they are not alone. I myself went through this recently and talked to my therapist about it. It was a road of self discovery. If you are not comfortable talking to your friends/family about it maybe go see a counsellor (I went to headspace and they are great).
There isn't a exact term for your preference but one term could be bi-curious. Interested in both genders sexuality but not romantically.
It maybe a good idea to have a chat to your bf regarding your confusion. Not everyone understands the bisexual/LBGT community and how confusing the journey of self discovery can be. I think it would be good to just have a chat to him about your feelings and see how it goes. If your not ready to do it now that's ok. If you want more advice come join us at the BB rainbow cafe and they would be able to offer more insight.
If you have any questions as a fellow B feel free to ask 🙂
MP
