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Anxiety about my relationship

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Hello everyone, i have never posted about my life on any of these kind of websites, but I have heard a lot about beyond blue and finally decided to reach out for some advice. I just need some non bias opinions on my situation. So basically, me and my... View more

Hello everyone, i have never posted about my life on any of these kind of websites, but I have heard a lot about beyond blue and finally decided to reach out for some advice. I just need some non bias opinions on my situation. So basically, me and my boyfriend just got back together recently after being broken up for about 2-3 months. We had had a really good relationship beforehand, but then the 'honeymoon' kind of ended when we both went back to school (seperate schools). I started to become impatient as he didn't seem to have time for me (he was usually choosing friends over me, and was very dedicated to his sport) I was getting tired of following him around and was starting to feel quite lonely and found myself thinking of myself with other people and if it would be better. Recently before that he had gone on a holiday and came back to tell me he had cheated (unintentionally). At this point near the end of our relationship I was feeling lonely and sad but was afraid to end things. He was getting frustrated because I couldn't voice why I was feeling this way, when I found out later it's because the trust was gone, and there wAsnt much left holding us together. We ending things mutually, and moved on. We still talked now and then just over messages, and we're talking off and on for about 2 months. We started "talking" again and flirting after about 2-3 months. We had a few fights during this period but somehow kept coming back together. We both admitted we missed each other and still loved each other. We decided we wanted to try again and make things work this time. I was really happy at first, then my anxiety made me second guess my feelings and attraction toward him. It passed and I was again happy that we were trying again. Everything was going well for another two weeks, and now my anxiety is back. I second guess his feelings for me, my feelings for him, if I'll get hurt and every time he talks about going on holiday or going to a party I get anxious because it triggers that memory of when he cheated. I know he would never want to intentionally hurt me, and I no from the facts that he loves me, but I can't seem to get it through my head. My anxiety also makes me feel ugly and worthless and I don't want to talk to him about it as I don't want to be attention seeking. Please give me advice on what I should do or how to manage this. thankyou in advance:)

friends and anxiety

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Conflict has aways been a scary thing for me. I've always been an anxious person, constantly overthinking things to the point of feeling depressed and sad. I create situations in my head before they've even happened and I get so paranoid that I convi... View more

Conflict has aways been a scary thing for me. I've always been an anxious person, constantly overthinking things to the point of feeling depressed and sad. I create situations in my head before they've even happened and I get so paranoid that I convince myself somebody is angry at me when in reality, they usually aren't. The minute my friend doesn't sound 100% cheerful or interested when speaking to me I immediately jump to conclusions and think that it's something to do with me, or something I've done. I am obsessed (my life pretty much revolves around it) with making sure we remain on good terms because every time we have been in a fight, it's usually her who has started it and honestly, it has really traumatised me. I am an incredibly sensitive person, so it takes me a while to get over things that others can forget about quickly and easily. I feel sick when I think about those times we were fighting, or the possibility of another one arising. I have to get over this because I know conflict is a part of life, but it's really hard for me to stop overthinking or caring. I need a way to stop thinking people are always mad at me, it makes me feel so scared and vulnerable. Does anybody else have this? Or have any tips?

Low again, body image - tips?

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Hi everyone Lately I have reached a low point again in what I call my "cycle" of depression and anxiety. This year all together has been a stressful one seeing as I lost my grandfather in March and my mother has been undergoing chemotherapy since May... View more

Hi everyone Lately I have reached a low point again in what I call my "cycle" of depression and anxiety. This year all together has been a stressful one seeing as I lost my grandfather in March and my mother has been undergoing chemotherapy since May to treat her breast cancer. This has contributed to my stress. My second round of exams are coming up soon, but my school has still decided to give my year group assessments every 2 weeks which doesn't leave much time for relaxing or exam study. As soon as I finish one assessment, there is another one to prepare for. But I suppose thats what school is like for an ATAR student. I have never enjoyed the social aspect of school and it makes me very depressed and anxious because I often feel that I am more mature than the other people in my year (not to sound arrogant) but I am not as interested in chasing after boys or partying every weekend like most are, and the drama is something I don't like to involve myself in. Body image is getting to me recently, and while I have not been happy with my body for a few years now, I was doing so well lately. I started doing hardcore exercise and eating healthily, I was excited to start seeing results in my body and I felt as though something had to change as a result of my hard work. Nothing has changed yet. Suddenly I have lost control again. The thought of exercise outside makes me incredibly anxious, and I hate myself even for eating anything containing dairy as I worry it will contribute to weight gain. I try to stay away from meat because I have a fear of food poisoning and my diet has become so restricted that I hate myself even for eating bread. I have cut out dairy, most meat, processed sugar, I limit myself to one piece of bread a day (sometimes the exception of 2) I feel ugly all the time compared to my friends who always seem thinner and prettier than me, they don't have acne like I do and I feel like they know I am the "ugly" friend. My closest friend is also weight conscious and I constantly feel like I have to do as much exercise as she does, or she will "win" (stupid, I know). I shouldn't compare myself to others, but its nearly impossible not to. I am constantly bloated to the point where I look pregnant, and I am tired of resenting myself but it is so hard not to. I'm sure this is a typical teenage girl problem, but it makes me so self conscious to the point where I feel depressed about who I am. I'm wasting time hating myself but don't know how to stop.

Disassociation/depersonalisation?

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Hi all, (For context my diagnosis are BPD, clinical depression, panic disorder, general anxiety disorder, high functioning autism - as a child also conduct disorder and ODD). Today I had an appointment with my psychiatrist at 3pm. At 1 I made myself ... View more

Hi all, (For context my diagnosis are BPD, clinical depression, panic disorder, general anxiety disorder, high functioning autism - as a child also conduct disorder and ODD). Today I had an appointment with my psychiatrist at 3pm. At 1 I made myself lunch, the last thing I remember before 3pm was taking my food out of the oven, then three seconds later I'm at my desk in my room, with the plate of food eaten, my computer on, my guitar sitting next to me, and it's 3:01pm. It takes me almost an hour to get to my psychiatrist so I had no hope of making it. In almost two hours I had eaten, played guitar, used my computer and I don't remember a thing, but clearly I was physically conscious. I've heard the words disassociation and depersonalisation thrown around, especially with BPD and autism. I don't want to self-diagnose, but I need to know wtf is wrong with me. This happens somewhat often too. Thanks.

Depression and unaffordable help

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Hi my name is lisa, As of late my mental health has been decIining. I often find i have very big highs and very bad lows. I am often irratated by things i dont expect to be upset by. Like once, i had done the enneagram test. I received the 6 w 5 resu... View more

Hi my name is lisa, As of late my mental health has been decIining. I often find i have very big highs and very bad lows. I am often irratated by things i dont expect to be upset by. Like once, i had done the enneagram test. I received the 6 w 5 result. For some reason it struck me in a way that left me in a breakdown for hours. It was because it was true. I didnt know what to do or who to rely on. Sometimes the highs are equal too that of my breakdown. I'll be so happy and excited. But it only lasts minutes. Then im back too being indifferent or unhappy. I also have severe trouble doing any form of work and practice i used to love. Like drawing, playing violin and other more technical things. Im always too tired to do it and when i try i breakdown again. I feel like i should get help but i cant afford it. I have tried before but i was ignored. I opened up too who i thought was a councilor. She ended up being some unqualified woman put there because they could not afford a real one. She said i was fine. I was just being silly. What do i do?

Embarrassed of my dad and where I live

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My dad has a different view on life and always does things differently - even simple things He's become lazier over the years and it has driven my family mad. I, unfortunately, still live at home (I did move out for a brief period but came back). Dad... View more

My dad has a different view on life and always does things differently - even simple things He's become lazier over the years and it has driven my family mad. I, unfortunately, still live at home (I did move out for a brief period but came back). Dad is unemployed (well, self-employed by selling things on the internet) and is usually home all day. I have a part time job and I'm usually out all day either at work or with friends or my boyfriend, so I usually come home to eat and sleep. He likes to spend all day on his computer watching YouTube videos while he waits for someone to buy something from his little business he has, rather than clean the mess HE makes. I have fought so hard with him to get his act together but he won't change, and I have given up. For years, I've been looking after myself in my dad's home. He still cooks me dinner as I work most nights and he picks me up from work as I am working on getting my licence, but overall, he's lazy and blind to the mess around him. He has improved a bit due to an old friend helping him clear stuff out of the house but it's still not enough. We have a Council clean up and it's the perfect opportunity to toss the majority of the mess away and he's doing it but not to the extent I want; he's just lazy. I would help but I'm never home! I never invite friends over anymore, however, I felt the most humiliated when my boyfriend managed to come over. I couldn't say no as we needed to do something that required a computer and we were close to my house, so off we went. I had warned him that the house was a bit messy as dad has been clearing out stuff for the clean up (as mentioned before) and apologised for any mess that he saw. We went straight to my room (which was a bit messy and I apologised for my own mess). When we were leaving my dad was using his leaf blower as a substitute for a vacuum in the lounge room! I kept apologising to my bf about my dad and his house but he said he loves me for me despite where I live, that he knows I have different values from my dad, that I am not my dad, that it's my dad's house and I'm just there temporarily, but I'm just embarrassed that he had to see all of that. He noted things that even I was blind to which made it even more upsetting. He actually wanted to see inside my dad's house because of he was curious about my dad had only meeting him once before. I love him, he's my dad, but he's just so different to everyone! I don't know how to deal with this.

Workplace anxiety and triggers.

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Hi all, I recently started a new job as a disability support worker. Recently I worked with a client who has aggressive behaviours which triggered my C-PTSD (I got PTSD from a 4 year abusive relationship). The 10 hour shift was difficult because I wa... View more

Hi all, I recently started a new job as a disability support worker. Recently I worked with a client who has aggressive behaviours which triggered my C-PTSD (I got PTSD from a 4 year abusive relationship). The 10 hour shift was difficult because I was overwhelmed with anxiety and was triggered by the client, that I made a medication error (gave medication late, partly due to pharmacies fault for printing incorrect medication sheets). I felt extremely bad and I feel all the employees judged me for it. I did not eat all day due to the stressful environment. I had told them I have PTSD from domestic violence but they still put me on the shift. I feel upset to even go to work nowadays.

I don't feel like a have a home

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For the past week, my parents had been on holiday which I definitely believe they need as it's been quite the stressful time for them, and so me and my younger brother had been staying over our cousin's place whilst my older brother looked after the ... View more

For the past week, my parents had been on holiday which I definitely believe they need as it's been quite the stressful time for them, and so me and my younger brother had been staying over our cousin's place whilst my older brother looked after the house himself. During this time, at school we've been looking through a new module for Standard English, Exploring Interactions, and it had got me thinking about my sense of home. Did I feel at home? Is the house I live in with my family what I call home? I felt so guilty questioning this and I feel just as guilty now. Anyways, after staying at my cousin's place, I had noticed many differences between my family and my cousin's. My uncle and auntie appeared a lot happier, more positive and supportive in the sense that they helped me out without being annoyed or bothered. At home, it's a bit more tense and 'colder'. I know my parents didn't have the best upbringing. My mum lived with her older sister and treated her like a servant when she was in high school and her parents were a poor influence, alcoholics, gamblers and kind of abusive. My dad's parents were very kind but poor, so it was hard to get by. And so with this, I can see how my parent's upbringing has influenced them, most particularly my mum. She's not a terrible person but she gets annoyed a bit more easily and is quite controlling. Basically, I feel constantly guilty for being an inconvenience and of little help around the house. Our house is quite large, so we all have to help out but school and looking after my younger brother with his poor organisation and independence has been stressful. My mum gets so angry with me not helping out and says how ungrateful I am for not being able to appreciate what we currently have. I'm at home now for one night before I stay at my cousin's for the last week. At 4pm, my mum video chatted me on Facebook and she told me about the shoes she got me for formal but I couldn't see them because their picture wasn't appearing. Agitated, I re-did the video chat, saw the pictures of the shoes and told her they were beautiful. She got angry at me as I mentioned I was sleepy and got more annoyed when she saw there was a plate I used on the table. At this point, I kind of broke. I ended the chat, fell asleep on the couch and woke up late in the day crying hysterically. I love my parents but I don't know what to do anymore. I don't feel I have a "home" and the guilt's tearing me apart.

Am I a lone wolf/introvert?

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I'm 23 years old male who has depression and social anxiety . My life at the moment consists of me going to work, coming home and spending the majority of my time alone in my room. It's been like this since I left high school. Through the years there... View more

I'm 23 years old male who has depression and social anxiety . My life at the moment consists of me going to work, coming home and spending the majority of my time alone in my room. It's been like this since I left high school. Through the years there has been opportunities for friendship, and my reaction to this is somewhat mixed. Part of me wants to hang out and be sociable, and at the same time I hate being involved in social gatherings and I eventually break that opportunity for friendship. I really enjoy being alone to a certain degree, for the most part i'm calm with it, but there are times where the reality of being alone comes down hard. I am reminded that I still have depression. It's so frustrating to me I have finally gotten other important things on the right track like work, saving, etc. But I am remind that there is this void of interaction that's missing. Ugh...

Who am I ?

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Lately I've been feeling extremely lonely and sad. Despite having friends and an amazing family, I can't seem to shake this feeling. I have never really thought of myself as depressed until recently but I think I have been for quite some time. I have... View more

Lately I've been feeling extremely lonely and sad. Despite having friends and an amazing family, I can't seem to shake this feeling. I have never really thought of myself as depressed until recently but I think I have been for quite some time. I have absolutely no motivated to work, no motivation to get up in the mornings and prefer to just sleep each day away. I have absolutely no reason to be this way or have these feelings so I'm not quite sure why I do. I never show this side of me in front of people. I'm the person who is always 'happy' around others and I put on a brace face until I'm alone which becomes exhausting for me. I don't know how to overcome this as I'm too embarrassed to tell anyone about it. I know everyone will tell me to seek help and talk to someone but I just can't bring myself to do it, I don't want anyone to know this is how I feel. I wish it would just go away and I'd enjoy life again but I feel like it's here to stay for the long run and I just don't know how to cope.

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