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Depression and unaffordable help

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Hi my name is lisa, As of late my mental health has been decIining. I often find i have very big highs and very bad lows. I am often irratated by things i dont expect to be upset by. Like once, i had done the enneagram test. I received the 6 w 5 resu... View more

Hi my name is lisa, As of late my mental health has been decIining. I often find i have very big highs and very bad lows. I am often irratated by things i dont expect to be upset by. Like once, i had done the enneagram test. I received the 6 w 5 result. For some reason it struck me in a way that left me in a breakdown for hours. It was because it was true. I didnt know what to do or who to rely on. Sometimes the highs are equal too that of my breakdown. I'll be so happy and excited. But it only lasts minutes. Then im back too being indifferent or unhappy. I also have severe trouble doing any form of work and practice i used to love. Like drawing, playing violin and other more technical things. Im always too tired to do it and when i try i breakdown again. I feel like i should get help but i cant afford it. I have tried before but i was ignored. I opened up too who i thought was a councilor. She ended up being some unqualified woman put there because they could not afford a real one. She said i was fine. I was just being silly. What do i do?

Embarrassed of my dad and where I live

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My dad has a different view on life and always does things differently - even simple things He's become lazier over the years and it has driven my family mad. I, unfortunately, still live at home (I did move out for a brief period but came back). Dad... View more

My dad has a different view on life and always does things differently - even simple things He's become lazier over the years and it has driven my family mad. I, unfortunately, still live at home (I did move out for a brief period but came back). Dad is unemployed (well, self-employed by selling things on the internet) and is usually home all day. I have a part time job and I'm usually out all day either at work or with friends or my boyfriend, so I usually come home to eat and sleep. He likes to spend all day on his computer watching YouTube videos while he waits for someone to buy something from his little business he has, rather than clean the mess HE makes. I have fought so hard with him to get his act together but he won't change, and I have given up. For years, I've been looking after myself in my dad's home. He still cooks me dinner as I work most nights and he picks me up from work as I am working on getting my licence, but overall, he's lazy and blind to the mess around him. He has improved a bit due to an old friend helping him clear stuff out of the house but it's still not enough. We have a Council clean up and it's the perfect opportunity to toss the majority of the mess away and he's doing it but not to the extent I want; he's just lazy. I would help but I'm never home! I never invite friends over anymore, however, I felt the most humiliated when my boyfriend managed to come over. I couldn't say no as we needed to do something that required a computer and we were close to my house, so off we went. I had warned him that the house was a bit messy as dad has been clearing out stuff for the clean up (as mentioned before) and apologised for any mess that he saw. We went straight to my room (which was a bit messy and I apologised for my own mess). When we were leaving my dad was using his leaf blower as a substitute for a vacuum in the lounge room! I kept apologising to my bf about my dad and his house but he said he loves me for me despite where I live, that he knows I have different values from my dad, that I am not my dad, that it's my dad's house and I'm just there temporarily, but I'm just embarrassed that he had to see all of that. He noted things that even I was blind to which made it even more upsetting. He actually wanted to see inside my dad's house because of he was curious about my dad had only meeting him once before. I love him, he's my dad, but he's just so different to everyone! I don't know how to deal with this.

Workplace anxiety and triggers.

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Hi all, I recently started a new job as a disability support worker. Recently I worked with a client who has aggressive behaviours which triggered my C-PTSD (I got PTSD from a 4 year abusive relationship). The 10 hour shift was difficult because I wa... View more

Hi all, I recently started a new job as a disability support worker. Recently I worked with a client who has aggressive behaviours which triggered my C-PTSD (I got PTSD from a 4 year abusive relationship). The 10 hour shift was difficult because I was overwhelmed with anxiety and was triggered by the client, that I made a medication error (gave medication late, partly due to pharmacies fault for printing incorrect medication sheets). I felt extremely bad and I feel all the employees judged me for it. I did not eat all day due to the stressful environment. I had told them I have PTSD from domestic violence but they still put me on the shift. I feel upset to even go to work nowadays.

I don't feel like a have a home

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For the past week, my parents had been on holiday which I definitely believe they need as it's been quite the stressful time for them, and so me and my younger brother had been staying over our cousin's place whilst my older brother looked after the ... View more

For the past week, my parents had been on holiday which I definitely believe they need as it's been quite the stressful time for them, and so me and my younger brother had been staying over our cousin's place whilst my older brother looked after the house himself. During this time, at school we've been looking through a new module for Standard English, Exploring Interactions, and it had got me thinking about my sense of home. Did I feel at home? Is the house I live in with my family what I call home? I felt so guilty questioning this and I feel just as guilty now. Anyways, after staying at my cousin's place, I had noticed many differences between my family and my cousin's. My uncle and auntie appeared a lot happier, more positive and supportive in the sense that they helped me out without being annoyed or bothered. At home, it's a bit more tense and 'colder'. I know my parents didn't have the best upbringing. My mum lived with her older sister and treated her like a servant when she was in high school and her parents were a poor influence, alcoholics, gamblers and kind of abusive. My dad's parents were very kind but poor, so it was hard to get by. And so with this, I can see how my parent's upbringing has influenced them, most particularly my mum. She's not a terrible person but she gets annoyed a bit more easily and is quite controlling. Basically, I feel constantly guilty for being an inconvenience and of little help around the house. Our house is quite large, so we all have to help out but school and looking after my younger brother with his poor organisation and independence has been stressful. My mum gets so angry with me not helping out and says how ungrateful I am for not being able to appreciate what we currently have. I'm at home now for one night before I stay at my cousin's for the last week. At 4pm, my mum video chatted me on Facebook and she told me about the shoes she got me for formal but I couldn't see them because their picture wasn't appearing. Agitated, I re-did the video chat, saw the pictures of the shoes and told her they were beautiful. She got angry at me as I mentioned I was sleepy and got more annoyed when she saw there was a plate I used on the table. At this point, I kind of broke. I ended the chat, fell asleep on the couch and woke up late in the day crying hysterically. I love my parents but I don't know what to do anymore. I don't feel I have a "home" and the guilt's tearing me apart.

Am I a lone wolf/introvert?

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I'm 23 years old male who has depression and social anxiety . My life at the moment consists of me going to work, coming home and spending the majority of my time alone in my room. It's been like this since I left high school. Through the years there... View more

I'm 23 years old male who has depression and social anxiety . My life at the moment consists of me going to work, coming home and spending the majority of my time alone in my room. It's been like this since I left high school. Through the years there has been opportunities for friendship, and my reaction to this is somewhat mixed. Part of me wants to hang out and be sociable, and at the same time I hate being involved in social gatherings and I eventually break that opportunity for friendship. I really enjoy being alone to a certain degree, for the most part i'm calm with it, but there are times where the reality of being alone comes down hard. I am reminded that I still have depression. It's so frustrating to me I have finally gotten other important things on the right track like work, saving, etc. But I am remind that there is this void of interaction that's missing. Ugh...

Who am I ?

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Lately I've been feeling extremely lonely and sad. Despite having friends and an amazing family, I can't seem to shake this feeling. I have never really thought of myself as depressed until recently but I think I have been for quite some time. I have... View more

Lately I've been feeling extremely lonely and sad. Despite having friends and an amazing family, I can't seem to shake this feeling. I have never really thought of myself as depressed until recently but I think I have been for quite some time. I have absolutely no motivated to work, no motivation to get up in the mornings and prefer to just sleep each day away. I have absolutely no reason to be this way or have these feelings so I'm not quite sure why I do. I never show this side of me in front of people. I'm the person who is always 'happy' around others and I put on a brace face until I'm alone which becomes exhausting for me. I don't know how to overcome this as I'm too embarrassed to tell anyone about it. I know everyone will tell me to seek help and talk to someone but I just can't bring myself to do it, I don't want anyone to know this is how I feel. I wish it would just go away and I'd enjoy life again but I feel like it's here to stay for the long run and I just don't know how to cope.

Loneliness

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Hi all. I'm not really sure how to start this or really what I want to achieve with this post but I honestly feel like I'm going insane. I am ineffably lonely. I'm almost halfway through my second year at uni and I've made no friends. Sure I've made ... View more

Hi all. I'm not really sure how to start this or really what I want to achieve with this post but I honestly feel like I'm going insane. I am ineffably lonely. I'm almost halfway through my second year at uni and I've made no friends. Sure I've made small talk and made the odd offhand joke about a lecturer but I've not made any lasting connections. All my old school friends have their new "squads" and I don't have anybody. I try to initiate conversation or invite people out but I am always the one to do it and they never seem to reciprocate. I think what I'm really after is just a reliable group of friends and the security that comes with that. I joined the soccer team but that didn't seem to help, and I don't think I even like soccer anymore. We are cordial while I'm there but nothing happens afterwards. In many other aspects of my life I am very lucky - I have a wonderful family, I have no financial concerns, I am reasonably intelligent - which makes me feel even worse. Why should i feel so empty when there are so many who have it worse than I do? Then I get stuck wallowing in self-pity and self-loathing. I can't figure it out. Yes, I have many flaws - lack of confidence, selfishness, arrogance - but even the most flawed individuals seem to find friends? Why can't I? My feelings are compounded by the fact that I am at university right now. Everyone tells me these are "the best years of my life" but I feel like I am losing my mind and I debilitated by my loneliness. In many ways I am lucky I don't have friends because all I want to do is throw my life away and become addicted to some stupid drugs which might give me a break from my reality. Fortunately I don't have any connections to get them! I drink too much though. But I try to tone it down when I am with other people as I realise that being a drunken mess isn't a particularly great way to make friends. I just don't see the point anymore- everything feels worthless. I pretend that I don't actually like social interactions because I rarely get to experience any. And I can just feel myself becoming more and more antisocial. I only want to spend time by myself which I know is so counterproductive. Im sorry this has been quite a rant and I realise I've been quite melodramatic but I'm just not sure what I should do. I realise a lot of people here have it worse than I do but I feel like I am wasting my youth. Thank you to anyone who read through this mess of a post I really appreciate it.

Drowning

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I just want to be alone. I’ve always considered myself to be shy and introverted but lately it’s gotten to the point where I hate leaving my house to even go to work or run simple errands. I haven’t dated much but recently I’ve started a relationship... View more

I just want to be alone. I’ve always considered myself to be shy and introverted but lately it’s gotten to the point where I hate leaving my house to even go to work or run simple errands. I haven’t dated much but recently I’ve started a relationship with a man who I thought I really liked but, recently, I haven’t been wanting to see or speak to him. The same goes for my friends and family as well and I’ve been finding it harder and harder to make a conscious effort to participate in conversations and catch ups. I never really liked being by myself and always enjoyed being in the company of others but I just feel like, right now, all I really want is to be by myself even though I know it’s not what I need. I have struggled with anxiety and depression and often find myself in bouts of sadness and irritation. I wondered if maybe I had an antisocial disorder? But I don’t find myself fitting in the ‘categories’ that these disorders entail, I have an acute recognition of others and I think of myself as a compassionate person. I really don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t want my friends or family to think I don’t care about them or want to spend time with them – I just want to be alone. When I think of myself in social situations right now I feel so much dread and I get so anxious about it because I really don’t enjoy it. I’m supposed to go to my boyfriend’s house tonight to hang out with him and his friends but it’s making me sick to even think about going. I’m so lost right now. I have no idea what is wrong with me. I don’t want to have to tell my parents that I need help. I don’t want to tell anyone that I need help. I just want to be okay again. I just want to be happy again. But sometimes I feel like I never will be. I feel like I’m drowning and there’s no way to save myself.

No purpose, not feeling good

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This thing is kind of off and on for me, but now I'm not in the best place. There's nothing special waiting for me in my future. I have hobbies but they can't be future jobs and with how it is now, when I do get one it'll probably be a dead-end one. ... View more

This thing is kind of off and on for me, but now I'm not in the best place. There's nothing special waiting for me in my future. I have hobbies but they can't be future jobs and with how it is now, when I do get one it'll probably be a dead-end one. I won't be remembered after school and it'll be even worse after that because I'll have no community to belong to. I don't exactly have friends anyway and it's lonely. I feel like I'm the only one who really cares about the future and what I do. Either way I won't get anywhere and there is nothing special about me. It's expected I find somebody else to shoulder this with me but I don't ever want my own family, or to have a boyfriend. It's not because I'm young or stupid, I know what I want and it isn't that. No family, no career, nothing special and no friends. Sounds pretty useless to me. I've been told I'm an attention-seeker and "all I do is make others feel bad" by somebody I thought was my friend a while ago. The funny thing is I never told them anything, I've never done anything. I try not to be negative and they think it's okay to do that when I finally feel okay again. Then everybody starts treating me like I'm naiive because I think differently to them and I can't stand up for myself. I pretty much live alone because my dad is working all day, so I'm alone all day with a brother I never want to talk to and never do. I finally decided to see a GP and I was in there for less than ten minutes. I spent the whole day worrying to be given a sheet of paper that asked me if I'm depressed or anxious, how would I know? There's a reason I came, not to self-diagnose. In the end I was told it wasn't that bad as well. I had to lie about some things I think about which was the only real important question because I didn't want to get into trouble. So now I guess I'm making it up too. People really know how to make me feel selfish and stupid I'm sorry if this isn't allowed. My last one got deleted for mentioning GPs and I wouldn't be surprised. I feel invisible lately

HELP! Anxiety prevents me from fully trusting my boyfriend...

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I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for just over a year now and overall, things have been really good. He is a very supportive person, caring, kind, loyal and respectful. Before being in a relationship with me, he did not have any experi... View more

I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for just over a year now and overall, things have been really good. He is a very supportive person, caring, kind, loyal and respectful. Before being in a relationship with me, he did not have any experience actively dealing with anxiety or depression, so we have definitely had some issues to overcome and have had to talk about his self-care. He came along to one of my psychologist appointments with me to discuss how to navigate my anxiety/depression, and since then he has been awesome at dealing with it. However, there is one major issue I really need some help with. Even though my boyfriend has never given me a reason not to trust him and I genuinely think he is a trust-worthy person, I seem to find it impossible to trust him! In the past, I was with an emotionally and sexually abusive person (a very traumatic experience for me) and I think this has contributed to my inability to trust. I know it is not fair to him if I do not trust him and I really want to, but I just don't know how. Whenever he goes out with his friends, I try hard to be happy for him but I turn into a nervous wreck (panic attack, crying, hyperventilating, nausea). I have noticed some environments are worse than others, for example if he goes to his friend's house or out for a meal or to play sport I am usually okay, but if he wants to go into town or to a bar/club without me, I really freak out and usually he doesn't go as a result of my reaction. I feel very uneasy about the whole 'club' environment where people drink, aren't really themselves etc. If anybody has any advice on managing trust issues I would really appreciate it.

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