Young people

Depression from loneliness

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I'm 20 and in Uni. I never had friends before but I would like to have some.I have bad social anxiety and some amount of social awkwardness. I find it very, very tough to approach people. I went to my university counsellor, and it didn't help. Someti... View more

I'm 20 and in Uni. I never had friends before but I would like to have some.I have bad social anxiety and some amount of social awkwardness. I find it very, very tough to approach people. I went to my university counsellor, and it didn't help. Sometimes I post memes of my depression on 9gag for advice but people just kept on saying that it will be better. Many tell me to start exercising but I can't as I have no will whatsoever right now. I think it's effecting my studies. I have no hobbies except playing video games. I started drinking and smoking to deal with the pain but I don't do them often as cigarettes are expensive and I don't like the taste of alcohol. How do I make friends? (Be as detailed as possible)

very lonely

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I haven't had a friend for 2 years. I'm still in school and I've tried so hard (but not forcefully) to connect to people, but everyone is always never interested. I guess it's okay because a lot of people don't have anyone close, but all my psychiatr... View more

I haven't had a friend for 2 years. I'm still in school and I've tried so hard (but not forcefully) to connect to people, but everyone is always never interested. I guess it's okay because a lot of people don't have anyone close, but all my psychiatrist talks about my 'loss of connection'. I'm working hard on self care, building my knowledge and I would like to say im quite optimistic and non-judgemental but I do have slip ups. I have schizophrenia, high functioning autism and ptsd, but I am very good at controlling my emotions in public. Am I doing something wrong?? I just want to be special to someone.

He used me for sex

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I was friends with this guy for a while probably about a year before all this had happened we were pretty close for a while he had been dropping subtle hints at wanting more which I had kind of been playing off as I didn't feel anything like that but... View more

I was friends with this guy for a while probably about a year before all this had happened we were pretty close for a while he had been dropping subtle hints at wanting more which I had kind of been playing off as I didn't feel anything like that but he still persisted and then I started to feel the same way one night I was really sad and turned to him as a friend for comfort and things escalated into something more it's been continuing like that this whole year we had never talked about commitment or anything like that I wanted it but was too scared to bring it up because he lives a few hours from me the relationship had escalated to sending naked pictures and sexual things happening over Skype he came to visit me and we had sex and I tried to bring up the topic of "us" but he shut me down he went home and we continued as normal I haven't been speaking to any other guys beyond my friends as well as not wanting to feel like I've betrayed him other guys don't take an interest in me and never have until him which is has been really hard for me to deal with and made me very sad and self conscious which he knows he recently told me he was talking to three other girls two that are further from him than me and one that lives in the same place as him which he also had sex with he said that he also told the other girls they were all fine with it I said I was too as we had no specified commitment in reality I was and still am pretty upset and he also keeps shutting down any talk of a relationship and he said we had sex but we're not dating that's it I feel very used especially cause it was my first time what should I do

Why do I feel worse?

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Hi, I have anxiety and depression and the people in my life who are aware are generally very understanding and supportive some of whom also suffer from depression and/or anxiety. A few people in my life don't know or don't understand but they try to ... View more

Hi, I have anxiety and depression and the people in my life who are aware are generally very understanding and supportive some of whom also suffer from depression and/or anxiety. A few people in my life don't know or don't understand but they try to sometimes. I don't know why but when people are understanding and nice it makes me feel worse and I don't know why? Does anyone else feel this? My sister just rang me and asked if I wanted to get out of the house because I didn't sound myself. Nothing to out of my comfort zone either she asked if I wanted to have a kebab and hang out with her and her house. She was so nice and gentle about it I got more upset. Why? I don't understand. I don't know what's going on.

Stuck in an endless loop

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I feel so empty inside and like an alien to everyone around me and it always gets me angry and upset just seeing people and groups of friends around me laughing and joking around wishing I could be like that but I can't even keep a damn friendship or... View more

I feel so empty inside and like an alien to everyone around me and it always gets me angry and upset just seeing people and groups of friends around me laughing and joking around wishing I could be like that but I can't even keep a damn friendship or relationship without some bs happening, I feel misunderstood, that everyone's out to get me and looks down on me, I feel so ignored and people at school just see me as some random, weird person. My self-esteem's been pretty high and I'm the fittest and strongest I've been my whole life but I'm doing horrible at school and i can't get myself to focus on studying, homework, etc and I always get low and depressed just thinking about schoolwork because it just reminds me of so much negative things and it's just all gonna come back around and I'm gonna mess up everything at school. And as for the dreams I have in life, I've hardly opened up on them because I feel that people are just gonna bring me down for it and they'll just end up getting crushed. I dunno what I'm doing at this point and don't know how I'll end up in the future

Feeling alone, have a big heavy load on my back

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I'm 19 and have always questioned my mental Health. At school I considered my self as a lone wolf, I had many friends but they where always separated by different friend groups, and I was everywhere but nowhere at the same time. At the end of the day... View more

I'm 19 and have always questioned my mental Health. At school I considered my self as a lone wolf, I had many friends but they where always separated by different friend groups, and I was everywhere but nowhere at the same time. At the end of the day I would always feel alone and would be the one to make the effort 70% of the time. By year 12 I was at my peak of athleticism and would spend my days training with a small group of school athletes but always felt "left out and forgotten." That sport season ended and I was detached from them entirely. I would attend parties uninvited and turned to alcohol to find happiness on weekends. I met a beautiful girl at the end of my schooling.I had never wanted someone so badly and it was the first time I felt a connection deeper. She was popular and there where other guys than just me. I had to leave her to go on a years exhange to Brazil and it was the hardest thing, too leave this girl who I had only just won over and fell in love with, someone who filled the emptyness in me. Brazil was exciting but I experienced mind boggling loneliness. I would stare at the ceiling for hours, stressing over what was happening back home, who she was with etc. I'd travel on public transport for hours to get anywhere in a foreign country feeling sad and by the end of 5 months i hit bottom. I was sick in the head and it hit me physically, my hands peeled and my skin went pale. The girl I loved had been seeing other guys and i had stayed loyal to her. When I went out I never enjoyed myself and would wish i was home back in Australia. I had to be drunk to break the sadness. I finally gave up and flew home, after pressure from my parents and friends to stay in Brazil. I ran straight back to this girl who also went through distress when I was gone. It's hard to blame her, she was only 16, but she caused a lot of pain. She was also my only remedy. I'm still with her. She's the only one that really cares for me. My relationship with my family is very distant. I'm at uni now and I've made few friends, I barely go out on weekends and spend some days not even saying a word. Uni is like carrying a heavy weight up a hill, I feel so bogged and stressed about it yet I spend no time studying. Even when I do get invited to things I often feel like it's too big of an effort. I hope someone can respond as I feel I need to get somethings off my chest. I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone I know, even my girlfriend.

Homeless or depression

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I have suffered from depression and anxiety in the past but have been off my medication for over a year and have been my happiest self recently. Although, my mother has told me that if I don't go see a psychiatrist for bipolar disorder and admit that... View more

I have suffered from depression and anxiety in the past but have been off my medication for over a year and have been my happiest self recently. Although, my mother has told me that if I don't go see a psychiatrist for bipolar disorder and admit that "something is wrong with me" I have to move out. Her reasons for diagnosing me with bipolar is that I am a little overweight, eat a lot of sweets, watch tv when I'm not studying and apparently "split-hairs". She has spoken to my brother and sister about it and "they have all come to the conclusion that I must be in denial of my new condition". I do not think their is anything wrong with me. I know what depression feels like, I know what anxiety feels like and I know that I am in a good stage of my life right now. I don't want to have to admit to a condition I don't have in order to stay in my home. I feel like if I was to do that I would be going back in my steps to be where I am today. I don't think I'm mentally ill, I just think I'm a lazy 19 year old. Yes I don't vacuum the house, or empty the dishwasher without being reminded 3 times. But it's just because I don't think about it. She thinks I'm always mean to her, and, in some cases I am. But it's hard to be nice and chirpy towards someone when just yesterday they were telling you your fat or that your selfish. What should I do?

I don't get along with my mother and I don't feel happy living at home

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I still live at home and mums always at home as she has no job. We don't have a friendly relationship. If I was ever to open up to her, she would use this information on me to make digs at me in the future. Eg if I said I was having problems with a f... View more

I still live at home and mums always at home as she has no job. We don't have a friendly relationship. If I was ever to open up to her, she would use this information on me to make digs at me in the future. Eg if I said I was having problems with a friend because they were being rude at a party etc.. if in the future we argued she'd say maybe it's not your friend who's in the wrong it's you. So we barely talk. She says little positive things about me, only very often hurls abuse. I am always the one in the wrong. My sister will take my things without asking when I tell her not to, yet I am the selfish one who can't share. Yet Mum will get angry at my sister when she takes her own stuff. She lashed out not long ago and smacked me. I was stunned. I really struggled after having a horrible tonsillectomy and I felt genuinely depressed after a month of being in pain and not being able to do much. I was exhausted and stayed in my room for a lot of the time. And then to have her smack me during that time over something stupid was heartbreaking. It wasn't a big smack, just a smack on my shoulder but nothing I would expect from a mother, in 2017 at least. I couldn't imagine getting so angry to smack someone. I understand I was probably a nuisance during that time but for my mother to not understand. I know she's had depression too so I would expect she could understand how to better handle situations like that. I feel very alone at home. I can never have a civil conversation with her. Every effort I make turns into a lecture about everything that's wrong about me. I know I'm not perfect, but to constantly hear this takes a toll. I feel I am not myself and I feel worthless. I sketch - and when I'm with my aunties they're so supportive and encouraging of this passion and telling me ways I should use my talent. I wish my mum was like this. I remember shortly after finishing uni I had been working on this one drawing for about ten hours and she comes and sits down next to me and says this is great - but you should be applying for jobs. I had been applying, but these are the types of things that kill my motivation. I question whether I am inadequate. I would like to think this isn't true and my friends at least make me believe it might not be.. but I have no confidence in myself. My older sisters were fortunate to grow up in a more positive home. I am grateful for what she's given me - education etc, but I feel a loss of love. I feel stuck.

Feeling unwanted

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Hello everyone For a long time i have always felt unwanted and unsupported in my family. Its not something that i am just feeling either. It is the case. It is always with my Dad to. I feel like he always attacks and picks on me the most. I don't kno... View more

Hello everyone For a long time i have always felt unwanted and unsupported in my family. Its not something that i am just feeling either. It is the case. It is always with my Dad to. I feel like he always attacks and picks on me the most. I don't know whether it is because he generally hates me or because i look like my mother. Or both. He always treats me like i'm stupid and can't do anything either. Especially with university. My sister was always good with university, good grades and an overall good experience. But because i am not on the same level as her he treats me like i'm an idiot and will never graduate. University is stressful enough and i feel like i need support from him and told that i can do it, rather than always being put down all the time. It hurts. He always acts like he knows everything even though he has never been to university and is always on my case so much about being stupid that I get so stressed and panicky. My siblings are like that too. They always agree with him and tell me to shut up because they know he will just yell some more. No one is ever on my side. He always attacks me the most. Even if my siblings do the same thing, he doesn't treat them as bad. All i get is shut up. It makes me think sometimes that i'm not his kid. I mean why would he hate me so much. I know this might not be the case, as my mum wasn't like that, but its got me to a point that i really want to be tested to see if i am his child. My sister to doesn't support me. Because she was so good at university, she treats me like i'm an idiot and won't accomplish grades. Just because i am not as smart as her doesn't mean that i can't do it. I mean i worked hard to get where i am. but you won't know it with the way they treat me. I just don't know how to deal with him and always feeling so unwanted and unsupported all the time.

Dissociation & Avoidance: Unresolved Traumas Resurfaces

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Hello, I have a lot of unresolved traumas that has snowballed, due to dismissive tendencies as a coping mechanism. I now suffer greatly as the result of bottling things inside for years and its taking a piece of me everyday, mentally, spiritually and... View more

Hello, I have a lot of unresolved traumas that has snowballed, due to dismissive tendencies as a coping mechanism. I now suffer greatly as the result of bottling things inside for years and its taking a piece of me everyday, mentally, spiritually and physically. I am terrified of my emotions, I'm not comfortable feeling at all and this has made me to lose touch of myself, I can't have healthy relationships with anyone and I go through extremes from perfecting and over analysing life events or completely involve myself in self-sabotaging behaviours. I still suffer from PSTD symptoms, and now it has manifested into other mental illnesses, making it more difficult to deal with. I honestly want to get better, I want to be able to be completely comfortable with myself again, but I don't remember what it is like to been in my authentic self. I have also avoided going to see a psychologist for years, and only now do I realised it is because I don't want to talk about my traumas. But now I realised that I have to. I don't know what kind of help I need to seek (because I have so many issues) and I don't want to go to a wrong specialist (trust issues). Who do I go to if I can't remember some of the details/traumas? Some of the traumas/problems that I have bottled up and needs help with healing and coping: Childhood traumas, sexual abuse and physical abuse death of my mother (who attempted suicide many times, and her succession was completely unpredicted because I thought she was getting better) PSTD, Anxiety, Depression severe mood swings, indecisiveness, avoidance of social activities and loss of motivation, low self-esteem, self-worth and a masked personality of false confidence. I don't know how to cope with it other than running away from it, and I don't know who to ask for help. If there is any recommendations or tips, advice, even to share that someone else is going through this as well, I would really appreciate that.

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Depression from loneliness

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very lonely

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He used me for sex

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Why do I feel worse?

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Stuck in an endless loop

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Feeling alone, have a big heavy load on my back

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Homeless or depression

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I don't get along with my mother and I don't feel happy living at home

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Feeling unwanted

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Dissociation & Avoidance: Unresolved Traumas Resurfaces

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