I understand completely where you're coming from. I am currently sitting on my living room couch on my computer and have been for the past few days. I'm ignoring my school work, and my grades are going downhill. But school isn't necessarily all it's cracked up to be.
Think of driving, for example. The roads are full of cars, and those car's drivers are all completely different people. People of different levels of education, different ages, different skill levels, different temper control abilities, and reaction speeds. But there are comparatively very few actual accidents that occur on the road. For the most part, people manage to get from Point A to Point B without witnessing or being involved in an accident. And 'life after school' is similar to this.
Everyone has a different set of variables that make up who they are, but still most people have a job. There are comparatively very low numbers of unemployment. I don't think it's a good thing that you're losing motivation with school, but it's not the end of the world. It's not something to judge your self worth on, it's not something to judge your abilities in life on.
In any school setting, regardless of whether it's high school, uni, etc., there will be people who are motivated and people who aren't. But the chances for any those people to get from Point A (school), to Point B (a job) are still high enough to make it worth trying for.
You are clearly aware of your lack of motivation, and you clearly care about this. You have goals - even if at this point they may be theoretical - and you have interests. Work with what you've got, and that'll lead you to more options and more interests. Of course, I don't know you personally so I can't know the full picture. But what about creating a gaming channel on YouTube, or learning how to make video games yourself. Take classes in coding, or typography. Tailor your 'life plans' to your interests, rather than pretending to be interested in things just because 'it'll give you a good future'
This has ended up longer than I planned, but hopefully it'll be interesting or useful to some extent. Take it as food for thought, and remember that you're not as far off track as you probably think. You care enough to post, to reach out, and that says something worthwhile about yourself.
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