Lately I've been finding that out of nowhere I get angry at people (family, friends etc.) for things that I think they might do or are going to do rather than for what they have actually done or even for what they plan to do. For example, a small thing like being told to go to church by my Mum goes from me saying "Yeah sure" to thinking "What is she up to now, what have I done for her to want to reform me, am I not good enough unless I am some church going saint?" (I'm not really a believer and she knows this which is a touchy topic between me and her side of the family). The worst part is just when I'm imagining the epic and loud argument with her about how she thinks I'm some disappointment, she actually come out and says "You know what, don't worry you don't have to I can tell you don't want to". Then I'm left feeling shitty the rest of the day about what a spoiled brat I was for not even giving her or whoever orchestrated these imaginary slights, the benefit of the doubt.
The weirdest part is this is all going on in my head, while this scenario was happening, in real life about 30 minutes passed by, where I ate and emptied the dishwasher. From her perspective it probably would've consisted of her asking, me reluctantly agreeing and then going off to what would have been a quiet and normal visit to church and home in time for dinner. Does anyone else experience this often or am I just an idiot who needs to chill out.
