Hi there Unigirl
Welcome to Beyond Blue and thank you so much for coming here and providing this post.
One thing really RANG OUT loud to me with your post – or what you said. You said your boyfriend will be angry (or may be angry) with you when he wakes up because you stayed home for no reason. Brrrrrrrrppppp – sound of a negative buzzer or wrong answer.
You DO have a reason, a very strong, a very valid reason – you’re suffering from having massive anxiety issues and issues like this are hell to live with and if you need to be home, then that’s what needs to happen. This is where other people (and yes, even people who are close to us) just don’t get mental health issues, well by and large they don’t. Sometimes we encounter someone who is aware of what it’s all about and that’s a massive relief if we can find someone like that; but yes, otherwise people’s first reactions are to buck up and to stop being lazy. They have no idea what we suffer from and how it cruels our way of life and our thinking and our ability to operate.
You’re in your last year of Uni – hey mega kudos to you for reaching this point – not sure how many years you’ve completed so far, but be it one or four, the thing is you’ve been there and have accomplished this. So HUGE congrats go out to you Unigirl. So now it might not feel it at the moment, but you’re in the “home straight” after completing most of the journey.
Yes, there’ll still be tasks to be completed, assignments, most probably exams, etc, but if I may assume here, this is course that YOU wanted to do, so try to break this year down. Don’t look at the big picture, not yet, if it’s all too consuming for you. Break it down to ‘week by week’ and what you need to do in order to get through, just each week. And do a similar thing for any assignments, etc that you may need to complete. Little goals.
One thing to ask before I send this off, have you sought out professional help with regard to your panic attacks? An appointment with a doctor?
I would love to hear back from you,
Neil
