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Social Anxiety

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I'm new to this site and have been struggling with social anxiety, probably since high school. I am now in my second year at university and have only recently just started to see a psychologist. I have days were its not so bad, but most of the time i... View more

I'm new to this site and have been struggling with social anxiety, probably since high school. I am now in my second year at university and have only recently just started to see a psychologist. I have days were its not so bad, but most of the time i sit in my tutorials and just feel really anxious. I always think people are watching me and like today i get this thing where somedays I just pretend I'm on my phone when walking in public to avoid eye contact. A few times I've even felt to anxious that I had to vomit, since i did in front of my boyfriend I'm scared that it will happen again and now its grown into this huge thing where i don't eat in public places. I haven't written on a forum, so not really sure what else to put. Why won't it just go away, i know that i shouldn't be anxious and all that but i just cant. I've been with my boyfriend for almost 9 months, recently I've been feeling really worried that he will get to the point where he just won't be bothered anymore and will leave me. I know its irrational thinking but it just won't go and i get really upset with myself. Thanks for reading x

when you can't speak out, write it down

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There's been fights with so many words left unspoken So many promises that were made to be broken So many tears that ran down the side of your cheek And so many putdowns that left you so weak But yet I stood by your side, I was always there I'm just ... View more

There's been fights with so many words left unspoken So many promises that were made to be broken So many tears that ran down the side of your cheek And so many putdowns that left you so weak But yet I stood by your side, I was always there I'm just someone's daughter who never fails to care At times you said I was more mature than I should of been Because of all the things that i'd done, things that I'd seen But I continue to surprise you each and every day With the things that I do and the things that I say Always helping people out when they were in need Always writing words I knew people wanted to read But guess what? All I am is just a 20 year old girl And sometimes I feel forgotten by the world Because when someone's always there for you I guess you don't see that they also hurt too Because I've always got a smile and a hug to give But did you know there's times that I struggle to live? Self acceptance, anxiety, the things you don't see That when I'm helping you, my devils are hurting me

Social anxiety

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Ever since a few years ago i have had problems with facial blushing and never realised it was most likely a bigger problem, being social anxiety. It usually tends to happen in big social situations when people will call out my name or draw attention ... View more

Ever since a few years ago i have had problems with facial blushing and never realised it was most likely a bigger problem, being social anxiety. It usually tends to happen in big social situations when people will call out my name or draw attention to me. In some situations im completely confident and in others i feel so nervous that i dont really want to be there. It is definately something that i need to fix because it does affect my social life/general life a lot and i really really do not want to live like this anymore. I am quite confident sometimes but i just wish i could stay like this in all parts of my life. The anxiety also tends to come and go, if im particularly social one week then i will become quite confident, but if i spend extra time alone or not going out as much then it will come back worse than ever when i am next in a big social situation. I always have the feeling that people are staring at me or judging me even if they are not, and every time i blush my whole face and neck will redden and my heartbeat will rise so much, and i will start to sweat. Sometimes this will happen even when im not actually embarrassed at all. Just hoping that someone feels a similair way or has had a similair experience and that im not completely alone on this!

unsteadily gaining and loosing weight

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Am I the only one who over certain time periods either looses or gains weight rapidly? I have a set meal plan but there are just somedays I can just not eat or not stop eating! Some days I can run forever and others I can't even get out of bed! I can... View more

Am I the only one who over certain time periods either looses or gains weight rapidly? I have a set meal plan but there are just somedays I can just not eat or not stop eating! Some days I can run forever and others I can't even get out of bed! I can't find any triggers and its draining to go through! Any help/advice please?

Don't know what to do anymore.

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Let me just say that I'm 22 years old, and I've pretty well had depression for the past 15 years of my life. I never fit in in primary school, was constantly bullied and it only got worse in high school. Around 17 years old it seemed like I'd finally... View more

Let me just say that I'm 22 years old, and I've pretty well had depression for the past 15 years of my life. I never fit in in primary school, was constantly bullied and it only got worse in high school. Around 17 years old it seemed like I'd finally overcome my manic anxiety depression after years of feeling suicidal. Although it was always in the back of my mind, it wasn't active. It came back last year. I'm not sure when it started again or why, but it's back again and it's worse than ever. But I had an amazing boyfriend who was there for me and held me when I cried and did his best to make me happy. I always told him not to feel trapped in our relationship because of my depression. I told him that if it ever got too much I didn't want him to stay with me for fear of how I'd handle it.It got to be too much,he told me in the gentlest way he could that he just didn't love me as he used to. And now I don't know how to move past him.My depression has always centred around my hatred for myself. I hate everything about me. People tell me it's stupid because I'm kind and beautiful, and part of me wants to believe them, but usually when I look in a mirror I see a selfish, ugly bitch that only destroys the lives of people around her. Including her family and friends.And now I'm alone. Again. There's no warm cuddles, nobody to sleep beside me at night and tell me they love me. I destroyed the best thing I had because I could never believe I deserved him, and all I can think of is how I should've done more. Been more. Tried harder.Now I'm just tired of trying. I'm tired of pretending to smile everyday. I'm tired of struggling to keep up at uni. I'm tired of the pain and the loneliness and the emptiness. I'm tired of feeling. I'm tired of being. And yet I can't end it because I know, somewhere in me, that there are people who love me. I know I would only hurt my family more. But I just don't know how to feel human again.I've started eating healthy, I'm seeing a counsellor at my uni once a month (though I haven't seen him since my split with my partner as it was just under 2 weeks ago) and I've finally told my family that I've had depression since I was 7 or 8 years old.I've always had a normal, stable family life with loving parents. But this only makes me feel even more guilty and hate myself more. How dare I feel this way when I'm so fortunate.I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm so tired of crying. I'm so tired of being alone. I just want peace. beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636. Normal 0 false false false EN-AU X-NONE X-NONE /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-priority:99; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt; mso-para-margin-top:0cm; mso-para-margin-right:0cm; mso-para-margin-bottom:8.0pt; mso-para-margin-left:0cm; line-height:107%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-fareast-language:EN-US;}

Feeing guilty, stupid, lazy and like a burden

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I've always had anxiety and depression my whole life and usually I've been able to keep it under control however recently I've just started uni and a lot of things happened in my life all at once which I think has made my anxiety and depression much ... View more

I've always had anxiety and depression my whole life and usually I've been able to keep it under control however recently I've just started uni and a lot of things happened in my life all at once which I think has made my anxiety and depression much worse. At uni I've just started doing law which I got into pretty easily with my marks from high school so I am supposed to be able to do the work however about 1 month ago my anxiety and depression became unbearable. Ive started having extremely bad panic attacks where I will pace around the house, crying uncontrollably and not being able to breath which gets to the point where I'm dry reaching. After these first started I also began to not be able to actually read anything properly and Id find myself trying to reread pages over and over without taking anything in. It got to the point where I couldn't really read anything at all because I couldn't focus. I also can't remeber things I've read the day before which isn't like me I usually have a good memory. I then became so bad that I didn't get out of bed for a few days and only got out because my mum forced me to (in a nice way). I've also found it hard to leave the house and make any kinds of decisions, this has resulted in me not going to classes for a month. I lose all motivation and can't bring myself to do anything... Because of all this I've fallen behind and it feels like everything is on top of me and I cant breathe. The thing that really bothers me is that I know usually I can do the work but lately I can't because I frequently lose days where I should be doing work just either having a panic attack or not being able to focus enough to read which makes me have a panic attack aswell. I feel so guilty about not doing my work on time and that maybe I'm just lazy and that I should just get over it and get on with it but whenever I try when I'm feeling bad I cant. My mum and sister try to be supportive all the time which makes me also feel guilty for wasting their time and making their lives difficult. Sometimes they say things to me like you're just going to have to do it or just do it and it makes me upset because I can't. I also find myself lashing out at them when they are only trying to help which just makes me feel even worse and like they would be better off without me. I look at my life and I can't see that I'll ever be happy and I really don't know what to do... Sorry about such a long post, hope someone can help.

Anxiety - Feeling Sick

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I have seen only a few of these posts about anxiety relating to the feeling of sickness, Basically im 17 and currently in year 12, I have been dealing with many other types of anxiety since the age of 10 but was able to deal with them. For the past f... View more

I have seen only a few of these posts about anxiety relating to the feeling of sickness, Basically im 17 and currently in year 12, I have been dealing with many other types of anxiety since the age of 10 but was able to deal with them. For the past few months now I have been struggling with constantly feeling sick when outside the house and being scared of throwing up, I used to be a pretty active kid, (tennis, soccer, running etc) but this has left me unable to compete in any sports as I just feel sick and it gets to the point where I can't move or ill throw up. I have visited the doctors and been prescribed Noten to see if it will calm me down for the time beeing but it has not helped yet. Im posting to discover if anyone else experiences this and can offer some tips/remedies to help cure the sickness. and yes I have read about trying to keep my mind off it when it comes and but the urge to throw up is so strong there is nothing I can do besides ride the wave out until it passes. Cheers

Anxiety distorted my reality

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20 year old student here! I've been suffering from an anxiety disorder since August last year (a bit over 8 months ago) - it started when I was getting panic attacks out of the blue for no reason and I didn't know what they were! My life revolved aro... View more

20 year old student here! I've been suffering from an anxiety disorder since August last year (a bit over 8 months ago) - it started when I was getting panic attacks out of the blue for no reason and I didn't know what they were! My life revolved around being terrified of panic attacks, so every single thing I did in my day was in light of them. The panic attacks started to be less frequent after the first 3 months but that's because general anxiety was really overshadowing them. It was that omnipresent feeling of uncomfortableness that I just could assign any reason to. I was receiving treatment from a psychologist - mostly counselling and relaxation techniques, touching on cbt principles - which helped but it wasn't really enough.In January (3 and a bit months ago) my mood was really low and I was feeling very hopeless about my recovery so my GP suggested that I go on antidepressants for a while. That was when things got even worse. I had a severe reaction to the medication from the first week. I was aware that it's always bad when first starting, but I was getting crazy intrusive thoughts about suicide, anxiety was through the roof, I lost my appetite completely, and I honestly just thought I was going insane. I told my GP about it (after only a week of taking them) and he sort of urged me to stop taking them because I was having a dangerous reaction, which obviously didn't make me feel better. Since that time I've been feeling so hopeless about my recovery. I feel like the old version of me is gone and I'll never experience life like I once did. People say that you can live a full life when going through anxiety (which i know is true) but i just know that I'll never be content with anxiety being there. The past month I've been feeling insane - like I find I'm really cynical and skeptical about things. I even get anxious when the weather is cloudy now because it reminds me of depression. I can't even think about a movie I watched because my brain associates it with anxiety and depression somehow. I'm very confused and weary of my thoughts and I just want to go back to normality. I find when I'm having good days the feeling is still there so I go back into having a streak of bad days. The thing that gets me is that I don't actually worry about anything other than my mental health - everything tells me to control my worries but I don't really have any worries. I'm doing ACT with another psychologist now but I feel like that's not helping also beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.

i need help with 2 things

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how long do anxiety panic attacks last iv had plenty of them but iv never timed them. and the other is i always have major anxiety surges at night time. and i want ideas on how to calm it

Struggling With My Anxiety...

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Even though I'm not physically speaking, this is the first time I have ever really spoken about my anxiety..to anyone. At the moment, I feel like I'm at my peak. It's been a slow build up for years now, but I'm at the point of it taking over. I've go... View more

Even though I'm not physically speaking, this is the first time I have ever really spoken about my anxiety..to anyone. At the moment, I feel like I'm at my peak. It's been a slow build up for years now, but I'm at the point of it taking over. I've gotten so deep in this feeling that today was the first time I have left the house in two and a half weeks, and that was only just down the road and back. For me personally, just the thought of going out into the open space and being surrounded by people makes my breath quicken. It's kind of like I've just power walked up a steep, rocky hill, but really I've just been in my bed, hiding under the covers from the outside world. My finger nails and the surrounding skin is a complete mess, because without thinking, I resort to picking and biting my nails in an attempt to find some relief. I am currently unemployed and struggling with that, but I can't even think about being in a working environment let alone actually going out and doing it. This is has all come from bullying throughout my childhood and then through four years of high school. High school was the worst thing to happen to me. It's all been a build up from there and has progressively worsened from there. I am now about to celebrate my 21st birthday in two months, and I wish I were able to be normal for just one night! Even when my mother suggested a family dinner with close relatives, I shrugged off the idea in front of her, then came to my bedroom and broke down on my bed, Out of fear, panic and sadness. They're my family...sitting at a dinner table with them for one night shouldn't even be an issue...but it is unfortunately. I hope very soon I can find the strength to begin to overcome this in some way. This may sound a tad dramatic, but I feel like I'm living in a nightmare...in my own body. My own mind. I don't know how much more I can take. At the very least, I just want to be able to go to the shop on my own and not sweat, get clammy hands and panic. Just, some sort of relief would be more than I could ask for right now...

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unsteadily gaining and loosing weight

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Don't know what to do anymore.

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Feeing guilty, stupid, lazy and like a burden

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Anxiety - Feeling Sick

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Anxiety distorted my reality

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when you can't speak out, write it down

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Social anxiety

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unsteadily gaining and loosing weight

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Don't know what to do anymore.

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Feeing guilty, stupid, lazy and like a burden

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Anxiety - Feeling Sick

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