So, I've had Social Anxiety since year 6. I'm now in year 11. I thought I should add this in - just in case.
Recently I've been noticing that I do some "abnormal" stuff - to me at least.
- Context -
With my social anxiety, most of the time I don't argue or try to justify my actions. Even if I feel my actions were 100% correct. Most of the time when i'm being told off by anyone (including my friends that i'm not extremely close with - not in a mean way, just to help me) - I will get extremely scared (They must hate me now, I'm done for, etc.) and I'll end up agreeing with that they're saying (yea, i know, yea, sorry...). This however, I think comes out as me being a bit "obnoxious".
I had to cut out the story because there is a character limit. Basically I have a new teacher teaching my class. She makes us do a group task. I'm forced to go with "bad" people. That is, people the teacher constantly tells off - They're not bad people, I meant bad in the teachers view (noisy and all).
There is a misunderstanding and she thinks I freeloaded the whole class (1 hr+) and she goes crazy on me. I've never had a teacher shout at me in my life. Being me, I end up panicking and agreeing to everything - sounding obnoxious along the way. She makes me do something that scares me heaps because it involves debating alone in front of a class.
- Problem -
I usually think about stuff in the future and get sad/scared. Crying myself to sleep and all. With what happened - forced to debate alone and having a teacher hate me (I think) in the subject I excelled in - caused me to worry a lot. I started thinking about scenarios and I would "blank" out. Once I finish blanking out, I would realize that my heart would beat fast and I would feel "oxygen high"/"adrenaline high". Oxygen high being, when you breathe in and out fast you feel weird. Sorry, I don't know what it's called.
Till now and still going, I would blank out and have scenarios in my head where i'm extremely sad/angry - distressed - and sometimes I would feel like crying, and sometimes I would get "oxygen high". My mum thinks i'm ignoring her, and I feel bad. I don't want to ignore her, but I can't stop blanking out. In class, I blank out and in and out. It's a cycle.
Is this a thing? Is this known as something? Did my social anxiety stem to other problems? I've looked into panic attacks, but I don't think that's what it is. Any help would be lovely, thanks so much!
