a ramble

kodadoo

I don't know if I'll end up regretting this as I got to sleep tonight but I need to get stuff off my chest I guess? And I've always felt like a burden turning to my friends and complaining so I turned to this as it's probably better than something like reddit.

Currently I'm 17F going into year 12 and although undiagnosed by a mental health person and just my gp mentally ill?? sorta? backstory nearing the end of year 9 I started to get bad anxiety, which only ended up getting worse, from what I remember when I went to see the gp, and after getting tests done even though I already thought it was anxiety, was told I most likely have some sort of phobia anxiety related to emetophobia, this was all year 10, and I have for a while been too scared to see a psychiatrist.

I don't think 'scared' is the right word, but more so avoidant, it would be nice to be diagnosed with something that tells me why I struggled to even leave the house let alone be home without feeling nauseous (specifically after eating food, thats where the emetophobia comes in) and has led to lasting affects in my life both in general but socially.

This avoidance mainly comes from the fact my younger brother struggles mentally, he has autism, adhd and anxiety as well and my parents have had their hands full, although high functioning hes struggled going to school for a while and I didn't want to add more burden onto my parents. I know theres going to be the "oh you're not a burden" and I get that, but there's still that nagging part of me that kind of doesnt believe that.

Only recently have I realised that maybe I should see someone, although I'm getting better I still struggle, and have a feeling its not the only thing I struggle with. I use to be incredibly insecure, especially in year 5 where god I was lowkey suicidal but at the same time it's all jumbled up so I'm not entirely sure (my memory is shocking). This ties into the other potentials, not to self diagnose, but I'm a chronic day dreamer, I think 80% of my day is me daydreaming, not as bad at school but still there, it's a habit I've done since I was little, plus some other mental health concerns, my lack of motivation and constant feeling of fogginess, that everything is dream like. And because of this being my final year of high school, I've felt the need to maybe get stuff checked out, unfortunately it wasn't as warmly received which I think in the back of my mind i expected.

wrapping up im running out of characters but ty if listening

ViolettaZ

Hi Kodadoo，

Welcome to the forum：）Thank you so much for opening up and sharing your experience with us.

I can really feel how much you’ve been struggling through your words, and I want you to know that your voice has been heard.

Anxiety itself (not necessarily only related to emetophobia) can cause nausea. When anxiety kicks in, it activates the body’s fight-or-flight response. Blood flow is redirected away from digestion, and stress hormones are released, which can lead to stomach discomfort, cramps, or even vomiting. Sometimes this can also be linked to specific triggers. For example, I personally notice that I feel nauseous after eating when I’m under time pressure or when someone is rushing me. Those situations are a big stress trigger for me. Once my stress level becomes intense, nausea can come on very quickly.

Daydreaming may also be connected to anxiety. It can be a way your brain copes when it feels overwhelmed by stress, emotional pressure, or real-life difficulties.

I’m really sorry that your suggestion to seek support wasn’t warmly received. That can feel incredibly discouraging. One gentle thing you could try, if it feels manageable, is journaling — writing down moments when you feel especially anxious, when leaving the house feels hard, or when nausea appears after eating. Over time, this can help you notice patterns and better understand what might be triggering these feelings.

In addition, doing small movements (e.g., high knees) can also be a helpful option to interrupt the anxiety cycle.

It takes a lot of courage to open up the way you did. Sharing your experience is absolutely a valid and meaningful choice, and you’re not alone, others may be going through very similar struggles.

Thank you again for trusting this space🤗

Warm regards,
Violetta Z

Psychdiaries2

Hey there,

Thank you so much for reaching out on here, it takes a lot of strength! I’m sorry to hear what you’re going through. You’re more than welcome to vent anytime on here and we’ll get back to you as soon as possible.

I’ve struggled with anxiety for a long time now and I relate to the nausea you describe. It really is the worst. For me, it has usually arisen when I have been really anxious for something (like an exam) and try to eat something, I find that I am nauseous and have lost my appetite. You’re not alone in your struggles.

Perhaps you could think about speaking with your school psychologist when you go back to school? I understand it is daunting to open up to someone about your struggles, especially if it hasn’t gone well in the past. However, I do know that there are some really helpful, compassionate people out there. As a first step, maybe you could use KidsHelpline chat option to speak to someone one-on-one online. Here’s the link: https://kidshelpline.com.au/get-help/webchat-counselling

I know it can feel burdensome to speak to someone for help at home, especially since you mentioned your brother struggling too. But I think you really need to believe that you are not a burden when your parents say it. We’re all human beings and struggle, it does not mean we are a burden. Maybe reconsider speaking with them about it if you feel comfortable.

About the daydreaming, I have daydreamed excessively for as long as I can remember. I think it’s a natural response the brain does to help get rid of anxious thoughts. Something I try to do is stay in the present moment so I don’t get distracted and lost.

If you do reach out to a professional again, I hope it will be warmly received, and that you get the support you need. If you need any tips for managing anxiety, I would be more than happy to give you some, just respond to this thread.

Take care 🙂