writing helps me; a newbies first solo post

[*Eloise*]

Hi everyone, so I'm pretty new here, although not new to anxiety and depression. Have had a few really challenging moments in in the past which required me to go on meditation but I've always managed to get to a point where I could come off the tablets. And for a few years now I've managed to be able to get through the tough times but the last few weeks I just can't seem to get a hold of it. My anxiety has a grip on me that I just can't shake so today I'm off to see my gp. I know that everyone worries but I am at an extreme level where I have rituals to combat getting anxious over doing stuff. I've always been fairly open about having anxiety/depression but this is the first time I've ever spoken about how obsessive I can get. I don't particularly want to go back onto medication but need help quietening my mind and gaining control back over my day to say life, and in the past it has helped me. I'm going to ask for the names of a few professionals that I could go and see as well cos I do want to get to the bottom of why I feel the way I do and ways I could help myself without being so obsessive. Reading this back I seem so 'rational' about it all but I'm so scared about talking to my gp about it face to face and actually hearing the words come out of my mouth. I find writing about it helps me, hence my first solo post here. Thanks for reading.

[White_Rose]

Hello Eloise

Bad days are the pits aren't they? I'm having one of those also. Struggling to do what needs to be done and not sitting down feeling sorry for myself. That's so easy to do.

Congratulations on restarting your medication. Yes it can be struggle but you already know how much help it gives you. Do you have any side effects? It took ages for me to find an AD that worked without horrendous side effects. All OK now. How lovely your husband is so supportive. Many partners find this difficult, usually because they do not understand depression and of course you have no visible wounds. Beyond Blue has an excellent range of information. Look under The Facts above. BB will send any material you want.

When do you see your psychologist? I hope you feel comfortable with him/her.

Mary

[*Eloise*]

Just been really tired, really really tired. The first day I was a bit nauseous but thankfully that passed quickly.

To be honest I've been too exhausted to even look at the list I was given so I haven't even picked one yet. All I've been managing to do is go to work, fake it until home time and then rest again.

Hopefully in a few more days the exhaustion will pass and I will be able to get into a bit of a routine.

Thanks for letting me know about the info, I'll have a look 🙂