Trying to cope, Pregnancy #3

[RoyallyDamaged]

Im currently 28, married with 2 children (4 and 6) and pregnant (11 +weeks) with our third child.

I have struggled with depression on and off for about 11 years.

In the past few weeks ive been feeling much more anxious and down than i had expected.

Ive been having awful dreams about loosing our baby and feeling very negative and aggrivated during the day. I know the signs or depression well and i feel as though im struggling on the edge right now.
I have no close friends right now and all of my family lives over an hour away, my husband works alot so i feel very lonely and secluded which is contributing to how i feel.

I would never harm myself or my unborn baby, but i have had continuing anxiety and panic when thinking about the rest of my pregnancy and having another baby. I feel as tho i cant do it, its too hard. My husband and i were very addimant that we didnt want more children until a few months ago when we both agreed that we would be happy to have one more. I feel as tho i am under tremendious pressure to ensure the pregnancy and further beyond goes to plan.

Both of my previous pregnancies went fine without any issues and i feel as tho i was in a stable emotional place for them.

In the early stages of this pregnancy it was discovered i had some alarming thyroid issues bought on by the pregnancy as well as some vitamin deficiances,

I have been placed on some pretty intense medication for the thyroid issues for the entire duration of my pregnancy,as well as frequent blood tests to monitor it, this alone has scared me alot as i have never been through it before.

Over all at this point in time i just feel extremely stressed ,scared and alone.

We also decided not to announce this pregnancy until we are both ready and although I think that is a great thing for us both I feel as though it is contributing to my emotional state and loneliness.

I really don't know where to go from here to find myself and be able to cope with what's to come.

[quirkywords]

Hello RoyallyDamaged,

Welcome to the forum. This is a friendly, understanding and supportive community.

It is hard when your first two pregnancies have been ok and you were stable , but now to have thyroid issues and anxiety and depression and worrying about your baby . That is an awful lot to have to deal with.

No wonder you are very stressed and scared and you feel alone.

Has your doctor explained your test for thyroid and the possible effects of the medication on you .

Or is there a community nurse who can explain things.

I think we get scared when we are worried about what is happening to us and if no one has explained what is happening in easy language that we can understand.

I think you need to find some one who can explain and maybe you may need to take your husband incase you find it a bit overwhelming.

is there a community health centre near you and do they have an antenatal nurse.

I fee if you had some more professional support and information it may help you in being less stressed.

All the best with your pregnancy .

Feel free to post here as much as you like.

Quirky