Hi Sue38
I really feel for you so much. When you're pushed to look for people who can raise your spirits and who can energise you in a number of ways, the search can feel pretty hopeless at times. There are a lot of times in life where I'm seriously left wondering 'What is wrong with so many people?'
Someone once said to me 'Find your circle of people and they'll raise you'. Truly wise advice, I believe. 'How to find them?' becomes the question. I've found for myself, you have know who you are in order to know the circle you're looking for (the people who will make a difference). Whether your circle involves positive, inspirational and energising people from Aboriginal communities or other communities, considering what inspires you is often a good way of finding who you need to vibe with. It's strange how we can spend so long not really needing anything much in life until we feel some deep need, perhaps some soulful need. It can be a need so deep that it can be almost painful. Wondering if you're feeling this way.
With the Australia Day topic, I get where you're coming from. My theory: If a particular tradition (such as sticking to this date) is causing sufferance for so many and it's something that's pretty basic to change and adapt to then why not change it and adapt/evolve? The government can say 'Sorry' forever but it means very little without deeper consideration, such as with changing this date of 'celebration', that is symbolic of sufferance for so many. You're a sensitive person Sue (sensitive to others), challenged by many insensitive people. Being a thoughtful and sensitive person can get pretty exhausting when you're constantly being hit with different forms of insensitivity. Again, that circle can prove re-energising, filled with people who can relate and raise you up beyond the insensitivity of others.
With both my parents in their 80s, neither shows signs of obvious dementia so I can only imagine how taxing and sorrowful this stage of your relationship with your mum must be. I imagine it holds elements of grief of some nature. Wondering if there are support groups out there who'd be able to help you make sense of this heartbreaking challenge you're facing with your mum.
So glad you came here Sue. Connecting with other sensitive people who can also feel the exhausting and sometimes depressing conditions of this world makes for a different path in the way forward, a path where you are free to express yourself and be cared for in the process.
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