Struggling with irrational anxiety and depression

[GlobGlabLab]

Hi guys, I know i shouldnt say this but it has been hard for me to communicate to anyone.

for 3 years i hard been struggling with anxiety and depression since i had traumatic experience. i could not leave my bed for 3 years and constanly just being inactive i find it hard for me to go out and see other stuff. i spend most of my time at home i know no one, no friends and no family to talk to (only my boyfriend). the hardest part is i find it difficult to make a connection to anyone. my social anxiety and fear are always in the rush telling me that if they know me they will know my real personality is bad and they will hate me and personaly hurt me. I am so sick and sad that i have to live like this. I have tried to make appointment to see my gp and counsellar and i have always missed them (I really needed their help). I have constant fear of them thinking that i wasted their time and help which stopping me to make another one. is there anything that i can do to get out this hell hole? my motivation is bringing me down to fixed my self 😞

[Peppermintbach]

Hi GlobGlabLab,

I would like to extend a gentle welcome to you the forums if that’s okay with you 🙂

I feel your depression, anxiety and traumatic experience have really shaken your self confidence and pretty much left you house ridden. You sound so frightened, rattled and on edge. I think as much as your house might make you feel “safe”, it’s also a cage too...

To your credit, well done on making those appointments. I know you didn’t make it in the end but the true beauty was in your effort. Effort counts...

Maybe this is just a bit too much for you right now. I wonder if you might like to explore phone or online counselling as way to ease into face-to-face counselling? Just an idea.

You might like to try giving the BeyondBlue helpline a call on 1300 22 4636 or use their online chat service (3pm to 12am) and see if someone can direct you to ongoing phone or online counselling options with certain organisations.

Also, good on you for reaching out. How brave...

I hope we hear from you again. That would be lovely.

Kind thoughts,

Pepper

[geoff]

Hello GlobGlablab, another warm welcome to you.

I support the words from Pepper and realise that for you to post your comment would take a great deal of courage by you, so well done for doing so.

Please don't feel frightened and don't expect that anybody may suddenly judge you in a negative way, this can be changed little by little and it seems as though you are suffering from not only social anxiety but also from this traumatic experience you have mentioned.

Depression/anxiety is not something you can get over by yourself but can with the help of medication and/or therapy, so you can ask whether your GP does home visits, that's your first move, then they may prescribe some medication which could be your first step towards recovery.

Doctors are trained medical professionals, they see all sorts of people, that's their job, so they won't think anything except that you need help, please give them a chance

Communications between you and the people on this site is a way to build up your strength.

Best wishes.

Geoff.