Struggling with insomnia and low esteem

[Leesh8]

Hi people call me Leesh,

I have decided to join this space as I need another space to share my thoughts without including my sleeping boyfriend.

Nothing seems to be going right, except for my amazing partner that I fear I'm going to push away. I have always struggled with anxiety and currently trying to work out how to let things go from the past.

My last relationship split because I hit an all time low, crying most nights after losing my best friend, my dog. After a year had gone by, he couldn't put up with my sadness any lingee, which is understandable. I fell out with my best friend if 5 years. And about 6 months ago I lost my baby with my current partner.

I haven't been able to sleep probably and I'm trying to stay away from the sleeping tablets since they are addicting.

I have just finished uni and struggling to find motivation to start my own business as I'm currently in a toxic work environment. Life doesn't want to give me a break and I'm not sure how to fix myself.

Does anyone have any tips on how to let things from the past go and finding self worth.

Thankyou for taking your time to read this and letting me into this space.

[quirkywords]

Leesh I want to extend a very warm welcome to you and am so glad you shared your experiences with us.

You have experienced much loss and sadness in your life and I can feel your pain in your words. The loss of a baby and only so recently would have an enormous affect on your emotions.

Did you receive support and are you receiving support now for the grief and loss.

You have also managed to finish university which is an incredible achievement at any time but with what you have suffered it is truly amazing.

I too get very little sleep and am very restless and am trying to get through a very difficult time. My mind overthinks at night and there are so many what ifs, why didnt I,

I have tried writing down these thoughts as sometimes they dont seem so scary when written down.

I am not sure how to let things from the past go but for me if I haven't processed and acknowledged these things they will always be there.

Keeping a journal and writing down m thoughts has helped me.

You are most welcome here and feel free to post here as much or little as you want, it is your thread.

Thanks again for sharing your story with us. You are not alone.

Quirky

[Leesh8]

Thankyou Quirky.

Reading this and knowing there is someone out there that is listening really helps.

I like this idea of a journal, I will give this a go. Time to go out and buy a cute journal for my bedside. 😊